Tuesday, June 17, 2008
music -- superman by five for fighting
OASIS
higher level of intimacy
deeper level of fellowship
wider level of influence
i brought home a weary body but a renewed vison , a husky voice and a overwhelming cry .
that burden of winning east view and junyuan !
that burden of helping my people in spiritual maturity !
that burden of saving my family members !
that burden of fulfilling the great commission !
i TRULY SERIOUSLY REALLY SINCERELY GENUINELY believe that this generation is the last generation to accomplish the great commission , so if we don't complete there wouldn't be any next batch or whatsoever ! therefore we have to win the youth today and win the world tomorrow !
i know this camp is a different one , because i know nothing i am convicted of is out of emotions . it is a deep cry from my heart , a loud conviction . a decision that i made because i know it is right and how can i not be moved when God speak ? plus , the facts are thrown down outrightly at you , if i stay indifferent , i'd be a piece of wood . with all the crisis the world is facing , man i don't now how long can the earth sustain...
i ought to live life different because after responding , no one should be living the way they used to live . live for the great commission . this passion will not cease because it's downright truth . we are the chosen generation set apart for the fulfilment of great commission ! =D i am super proud and honoured to be the finisher of the great commission , what a privilege !
we've all responded , let's not lose heart when problems come . we shall stand together and make sure none of us fall =D
*anyway i have yet receive any photos from camp , except two sent by rotten brinjal .
=D
Labels: banging love, inspired
10:49 AM
Friday, May 30, 2008
music -- when i'm with you by faber drive
if you're observant enough , you'll notice that i upate my blog once a month . but today i'm gonna break my routine , haha by one day before it turns a new month =D
i know there's some things i gotta "release" and let the rest of the people know before everything gets too late for each individual to realise towards their loved ones . for i know that , it may already come quite late for me )':
http://girlindisguise.blogspot.com/2008_02_01_archive.html - my sister's post in feb...
however i don't live in hostel , i have every opportunity to be at home every single day to accompany her . i let those chances slip by . each day when i wake up , i'd leave home in a hurry and by the time i reached home it's already past midnight . the moments spent with her was so little , i know we badly need a conversation and sometimes she just wanna know what's going on in my life . from the past till now , each night as i recall and think about her , i can't help but i just couldn't stop my tears from flowing . i fear that one day her presence won't be with me and what's worse is that i do not have any idea about how to share the gospel to her . i feel like a failure . i didn't even fulfil my responsibility as a grandchild , even the world know what it means to keep someone company . i regret . damn regret .
i remember the very first time i raised my voice at her . just because she got my sister some free koko krunch toy that is cuter than what she got for me . in fact she got the toy for me first , i should be grateful .
i remember the times i taught her english . my sis and i couldn't help but to laugh at her poor pronounciation . yea... those were the days we had fun................
i remember i used to shit at those container shaped toilet bowl for kids and i spilt mine on the floor and she had to clear it up . i felt so guilty .
i remember her giving us money to go her house void deck to buy useless sailormoon cards
i remember forcing her to play catching with me after kindergarden and i remember that i felt embarassed when other kids can go home themselves so i asked her to wait for me at somewhere further
i remember how much she love and care for me up till today , even if she's lying on that hospital bed
everything change
it's no longer the same , people grow , people age , people have time limit
if only time could pass slower now , if only i have more time for her , if only i can really turn back time . but for now i wanna tell her that i love her , that she actually mean so much to me and is not a burden to my family and i . i'll not take her for granted ever again .
it's so amusing that now when i wake up or go home in the afternoon , i have the tendency to go to the kitchen to find her , i'm just so used to it . i really miss her alot . and it pains me to see all the tubes injecting into her body .
-- it took me forever to type this post with alot of grammar error , wrong usage of words and phrasing or whatsoever , pardon me for my poor english , i had to use alot of tissues and it's distracting me . don't think i manage to get the exact essence of what i am feeling now through this post but i harbour lots of courage .
)': pray with me , please...
Labels: i pray you'll be okei
9:46 AM
Tuesday, May 20, 2008
music -- tongue tiedand if you worship the slain gods
you'd better clean up your filthy vessels
faber , my drive =D
10:19 AM
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
for the
FIRST time...
i forgot to bursh my teeth yesterday afternoon when i woke up.. HAHA and it took me two good hours to realise it !
and..
i am having post work syndrome after i knocked off from work this morning , other than speaking apart from usual , i went home and i took out my locker key to open the door instead of my house key xD i shocked myself HAHA . i slept and had a
nightmare: an irritating customer messaged me saying thanks because i helped her call the hub manager and had her missing condiments sent to her . her name's kinda of irritating too , it's
Yoyo . imagine calling her name
534538 times , don't you find it annoying ? i sure do ! well i guess i am suffering from workaholism-ness . is there ever such a word ? HAHA =D
lastly...
i just cooked myself a packet of mee goreng using tupperware with my microwave and it taste horrible . the
MSG's not mixed properly , it smells sweet but it's salty . i added meat balls and hotdog in , i wonder will i get poisoned by throwing frozen item into the tupperware . i know it's not fully cooked , cos i tasted quite some powdery stuff..
hahaha not done yet...
i'm coughing like murder and my nose's blocked like i'm gonna die if i close my mouth for two minutes due to out of breath .
exaggeration ? not at all . HAHA probably i can create the latest trend for suicide, get your nose block and close your mouth for more than two minutes . geeks , learn from me alright !
SUICIDAL ~ SUICIDAL ~ ha.. i'm mad..music -- everything you want by vertical horizon
1:32 PM
Monday, March 31, 2008
music -- can't stop by maroon five
finally caught leap years last friday... i guess many watched it already but if you have not , please please go watch it ! it's two thumbs up , excellent plot , marvellous twist . man i didn't know literature can get so romantic... probably i'm not exposed to such things haha !
i just can't seem to get you out of my head... leave , GET OUT !
12:19 AM
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
music -- i still believe by jeremy campi'm journeying for some tremendous growth , mould me , make me more like You .
no matter how satan thwart my plans , i know God have the best plan for me and we're gonna make things work together . remind me of prayers i've made and my covenant to You , haha cos You made my muddlehead .
well my papers are over and i'm pretty confident that i'll take supp ): but all things still up to God... (in my heart of hearts , i'm praying hard for miracles !) so while the rest were mugging , i browsed through garfield by jim davis . this guy here is a real genius , i think if he don't insult , he don't feel good . therefore i played a few criticism on jeslin and gock... quite fun !
oh no how can i forget , speak words to encourage HAHA !
i just read my sister's blog , her recent post is about my granny . those who know me , should know that i love my granny alot ( other than me relating odd-ly at home ) . i agree with my sister , and in fact , sentiments exactly ! at night , it's the time to feel emo... i'll usually take the time to think about my household and pray for them. i am very burden for my family!!!!! God , You do Your work here..! while i do mine =D family bond must be tighter !!!!! =D
i don't believe we can't reap ! pour down ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! second phase... we can do it !
hahaha yeah ! ESS is over ! WELL DONE DANCE TEAM =D WELL DONE GIRL GANG / HIT ME GANG , I AM GANG AND THE CONTEMP KING AND QUEENS ! THANK GOD FOR OUR BOSS JIALI AND ALL THE OTHER CHOREOGRAPHERS ! =D indeed we've grown ! and yes shane , the lighting's good =D HAHA
i screwed a few steps ! everything's so freaky up on stage xD
things will change , swear !
=D
8:16 AM
Monday, February 11, 2008
music --- time machine by the click fiveit's chinese new year... this year the money in my red packets got more substance =D HAHA YEAH-NESS! $_$
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HEHEHEHEHEHEHEHE xD
oh... i forget to mention , i fell sick and i'm getting fatter... ): datelines and agendas are pushing me to a corner , i need to maximise my time and manage it really well ! so much to accomplish with so little time..
You are my strenght when i am weak
=D
2:04 AM
