it's never about me but YOU

2008-06-17T10:49:00.000-07:00

music -- superman by five for fighting

OASIS
higher level of intimacy
deeper level of fellowship
wider level of influence

i brought home a weary body but a renewed vison , a husky voice and a overwhelming cry .
that burden of winning east view and junyuan !
that burden of helping my people in spiritual maturity !
that burden of saving my family members !
that burden of fulfilling the great commission !

i TRULY SERIOUSLY REALLY SINCERELY GENUINELY believe that this generation is the last generation to accomplish the great commission , so if we don't complete there wouldn't be any next batch or whatsoever ! therefore we have to win the youth today and win the world tomorrow !

i know this camp is a different one , because i know nothing i am convicted of is out of emotions . it is a deep cry from my heart , a loud conviction . a decision that i made because i know it is right and how can i not be moved when God speak ? plus , the facts are thrown down outrightly at you , if i stay indifferent , i'd be a piece of wood . with all the crisis the world is facing , man i don't now how long can the earth sustain...

i ought to live life different because after responding , no one should be living the way they used to live . live for the great commission . this passion will not cease because it's downright truth . we are the chosen generation set apart for the fulfilment of great commission ! =D i am super proud and honoured to be the finisher of the great commission , what a privilege !

we've all responded , let's not lose heart when problems come . we shall stand together and make sure none of us fall =D

*anyway i have yet receive any photos from camp , except two sent by rotten brinjal .

=D

2008-05-30T09:46:00.000-07:00

music -- when i'm with you by faber drive

if you're observant enough , you'll notice that i upate my blog once a month . but today i'm gonna break my routine , haha by one day before it turns a new month =D

i know there's some things i gotta "release" and let the rest of the people know before everything gets too late for each individual to realise towards their loved ones . for i know that , it may already come quite late for me )':

http://girlindisguise.blogspot.com/2008_02_01_archive.html - my sister's post in feb...

however i don't live in hostel , i have every opportunity to be at home every single day to accompany her . i let those chances slip by . each day when i wake up , i'd leave home in a hurry and by the time i reached home it's already past midnight . the moments spent with her was so little , i know we badly need a conversation and sometimes she just wanna know what's going on in my life . from the past till now , each night as i recall and think about her , i can't help but i just couldn't stop my tears from flowing . i fear that one day her presence won't be with me and what's worse is that i do not have any idea about how to share the gospel to her . i feel like a failure . i didn't even fulfil my responsibility as a grandchild , even the world know what it means to keep someone company . i regret . damn regret .

i remember the very first time i raised my voice at her . just because she got my sister some free koko krunch toy that is cuter than what she got for me . in fact she got the toy for me first , i should be grateful .
i remember the times i taught her english . my sis and i couldn't help but to laugh at her poor pronounciation . yea... those were the days we had fun................
i remember i used to shit at those container shaped toilet bowl for kids and i spilt mine on the floor and she had to clear it up . i felt so guilty .
i remember her giving us money to go her house void deck to buy useless sailormoon cards
i remember forcing her to play catching with me after kindergarden and i remember that i felt embarassed when other kids can go home themselves so i asked her to wait for me at somewhere further
i remember how much she love and care for me up till today , even if she's lying on that hospital bed

everything change

it's no longer the same , people grow , people age , people have time limit

if only time could pass slower now , if only i have more time for her , if only i can really turn back time . but for now i wanna tell her that i love her , that she actually mean so much to me and is not a burden to my family and i . i'll not take her for granted ever again .

it's so amusing that now when i wake up or go home in the afternoon , i have the tendency to go to the kitchen to find her , i'm just so used to it . i really miss her alot . and it pains me to see all the tubes injecting into her body .

-- it took me forever to type this post with alot of grammar error , wrong usage of words and phrasing or whatsoever , pardon me for my poor english , i had to use alot of tissues and it's distracting me . don't think i manage to get the exact essence of what i am feeling now through this post but i harbour lots of courage .

)': pray with me , please...

2008-05-20T10:19:00.000-07:00

music -- tongue tied

and if you worship the slain gods
you'd better clean up your filthy vessels

faber , my drive =D

2008-04-08T13:32:00.000-07:00

for the FIRST time...

i forgot to bursh my teeth yesterday afternoon when i woke up.. HAHA and it took me two good hours to realise it !

and..

i am having post work syndrome after i knocked off from work this morning , other than speaking apart from usual , i went home and i took out my locker key to open the door instead of my house key xD i shocked myself HAHA . i slept and had a nightmare: an irritating customer messaged me saying thanks because i helped her call the hub manager and had her missing condiments sent to her . her name's kinda of irritating too , it's Yoyo . imagine calling her name 534538 times , don't you find it annoying ? i sure do ! well i guess i am suffering from workaholism-ness . is there ever such a word ? HAHA =D

lastly...

i just cooked myself a packet of mee goreng using tupperware with my microwave and it taste horrible . the MSG's not mixed properly , it smells sweet but it's salty . i added meat balls and hotdog in , i wonder will i get poisoned by throwing frozen item into the tupperware . i know it's not fully cooked , cos i tasted quite some powdery stuff..

hahaha not done yet...

i'm coughing like murder and my nose's blocked like i'm gonna die if i close my mouth for two minutes due to out of breath . exaggeration ? not at all . HAHA probably i can create the latest trend for suicide, get your nose block and close your mouth for more than two minutes . geeks , learn from me alright ! SUICIDAL ~ SUICIDAL ~ ha.. i'm mad..

music -- everything you want by vertical horizon

2008-03-31T00:19:00.000-07:00

music -- can't stop by maroon five

finally caught leap years last friday... i guess many watched it already but if you have not , please please go watch it ! it's two thumbs up , excellent plot , marvellous twist . man i didn't know literature can get so romantic... probably i'm not exposed to such things haha !

i just can't seem to get you out of my head... leave , GET OUT !

2008-02-26T08:16:00.000-08:00

music -- i still believe by jeremy camp

i'm journeying for some tremendous growth , mould me , make me more like You .
no matter how satan thwart my plans , i know God have the best plan for me and we're gonna make things work together . remind me of prayers i've made and my covenant to You , haha cos You made my muddlehead .

well my papers are over and i'm pretty confident that i'll take supp ): but all things still up to God... (in my heart of hearts , i'm praying hard for miracles !) so while the rest were mugging , i browsed through garfield by jim davis . this guy here is a real genius , i think if he don't insult , he don't feel good . therefore i played a few criticism on jeslin and gock... quite fun !
oh no how can i forget , speak words to encourage HAHA !

i just read my sister's blog , her recent post is about my granny . those who know me , should know that i love my granny alot ( other than me relating odd-ly at home ) . i agree with my sister , and in fact , sentiments exactly ! at night , it's the time to feel emo... i'll usually take the time to think about my household and pray for them. i am very burden for my family!!!!! God , You do Your work here..! while i do mine =D family bond must be tighter !!!!! =D

i don't believe we can't reap ! pour down ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! second phase... we can do it !

hahaha yeah ! ESS is over ! WELL DONE DANCE TEAM =D WELL DONE GIRL GANG / HIT ME GANG , I AM GANG AND THE CONTEMP KING AND QUEENS ! THANK GOD FOR OUR BOSS JIALI AND ALL THE OTHER CHOREOGRAPHERS ! =D indeed we've grown ! and yes shane , the lighting's good =D HAHA
i screwed a few steps ! everything's so freaky up on stage xD

things will change , swear !
=D

2008-02-11T02:04:00.000-08:00

music --- time machine by the click five

it's chinese new year... this year the money in my red packets got more substance =D HAHA YEAH-NESS! $_$
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oh... i forget to mention , i fell sick and i'm getting fatter... ): datelines and agendas are pushing me to a corner , i need to maximise my time and manage it really well ! so much to accomplish with so little time..

You are my strenght when i am weak
=D

2008-02-04T10:48:00.000-08:00

music -- way back into love by hugh grant and hanney bennett

wait a minute , i guess i'm not very racist afterall... cos i find this indian boy really cute! hahaha but just last week , i saw three really really black and skinny little indian boys... they look like matchstick playing in the sea ! ( they wore only white underwear and they have skinhead) the sea water just can't seem to wash off the black stain on them... ): how pathetic , i feel for them !

oh by the way jeslin is practising signatures just now at 12.31am on fifth feb 08... for whatever reason she's doing that... random bob !

oh oh oh ! i am getting fonder of chinese new year songs... those really stupid ones like... " qi ge long dong piao yi piao... " , " xiang qi nei ge gu ah dong dong qiang , xiang qi nei ge luo ah xiang ding dang... " i wish i can sing for you ! HAHAHAHAHA but there's still many more that i find them irritating =D

psalm
19:14
clean hands , pure heart , righteous thoughts
=D

2008-02-04T02:13:00.000-08:00

music -- to know Your name by hillsong

MANCHESTER UNITED LOST TOTTENHAM ; SCORE 0 to 1
man... that depressing fact , that agony in cristiano ronaldo's face , i feel for my man ! HAHA xD i'm not a soccer fan but i am a fan of cristiano ! cristiano , gogogo jiayou ! hehehehehe
edited : MANCHESTER DRAWS WITH TOTTENHAM ; SCORE 1:1
phew... almost, MAN U was so close to losing, but they kept the faith and kept fighting! AND AT THE LAST MINUTE THEY SCORE!!!
haha i didn't watch the last few minutes of the match that's why i didn't know they draw. but now i know... and currently the standings for the PBL is Arsenal, followed by Man U and then Chelsea... but i know Man U will still own the whole PBL! =D

well so many things that i couldn't fathom... why this , why that ? why not like this , why not like that ? why are people responding this way ? can't they just spare a thought for others ? do to others what you want others to do unto you ! don't you people know it's hurting ! i don't know what you guys want me to do cos i've tried all that i can , if i can't meet up to your expectations , i'm sorry... but probably you wanna compromise ? i've done my best... ):

on a higher note , reality slapped me hard today , guess what ?!!? we're like three weeks away to completing junyuan and east view but yet now we're like not here not there... this is really scary ! God please don't pass us by ! seriously we ought to give in our all in these mere three weeks , it'll soon be over and when we looked back , we'll realised the fruits we collected are sweet and fresh ! moreover we have so much bonuses , one ECG and two ESS ! if we don't tap on such opportunities , we're fools ! LET'S BREAK FORTY BY END FEB ! we ain't far , just last week we hit 28 , it's easy with God !

pimples , i hate you !
ulcers , i hate you too !

take over TAKE OVER ,
=D

2008-01-27T07:16:00.000-08:00

music -- over my head by the fray

eww i had to admit and agree with my sister that manpower is so-not-professional .

first of all , they are company but in their different departments there's no collaboration , everyone's doing their own piece of job . i mean in a company , every department have to work together or else they'll end up being disorganised and having no order . manpower called me freaking alot of times in a day just to ask me the same questions over again and at the end of the conversation they'll repeat whatever i said wrongly . it's only an easy question of what time and how many people is going for the interview and they can get it wrong over and over again . the worst thing is , there's always different people calling me , once they even accused me of not reporting that i'll be late... like come on , i called but ANOTHER person from ANOTHER department answered =x

secondly they gave me and pq a short training and i dare say with my life that they didn't mention i had to wear covered shoes to work . they told me everything is in the summarised piece of paper , so why would we go and see the powerpoint slides they printed for us ? so today i went to work with slippers and i was asked to go home... like what the ! i got reprimanded by the staff there for something that's not my fault . manpower even told me that pq wore covered shoes when pq was uncontactable during that period and after that she told me that she wore slippers . how dare they cheat me ?

last but not the least , manpower should apologise instead of accusing me of not listening to what the trainer say . wah lau ehh , i was attentive and am dead sure she never say anything regarding shoes lor ! the least they could do is to apologise , i seriously do not mind if they wanna compensate me . but being kind-hearted , i doubt i would ask for compensation , or maybe i should ? i just feel that i am being treated unfairly and they are really irresponsible cos i asked how about arranging me to work for another place and they say they'll see about it . i'm going there to create havoc tomorrow and i'm gonna make sure i am able to work and get what i deserve . God , you must help me ar... i scared hehehe xD

the bottomline is I COULD HAVE EARN SEVENTY BUCKS TODAY IF NOT FOR MANPOWER'S POOR COMMUNICATION ! UGH ! and probably another seventy bucks because they might not arrange jobs for me in the next two days ! and that's one hundred and forty bucks !

k enough of rants , afterall i am still Godly and righteous and i gonna leave this whole thing to God to settle =D maybe God don't want me to pay my debts , right gock ? HAHA ! no lah , hopefully can work next time IF NOTHING AS SUCH HAPPEN AGAIN and i can settle debts . yippee hooray , i am a free girl ! =D

GALATIANS 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.
i'm believing God for a harvest ! this week ! forty ! do or die !
denise =D

2008-01-21T02:55:00.000-08:00

music -- zhen de ai ni by beyond ( cantonese version , you can find it in dance blog )

i'll post since i've got nothing better to do , and guess what ?! this is my hundredth post ! i'm so proud of myself !

i am now waiting for mag a.k.a carys to finish typing this teaching regarding worship for me . i'm so so so so so grateful to her , cos she put in so much effort to help me find teachings regarding worship . seriously i was so desperate , cos tomorrow's dmm and my teaching's gone ! i mean how can it be ? i remember very clearly there's a sermon regarding extravagant worship and it changed my whole perspective about worship... but then when i asked online , everyone tell me that they don't remember having this teaching at all . i was stunned for a moment , i wondered if i was dreaming during service hahah ! oh anyway , mag finish typing the teaching ! hooray ! =D THANKS MAG!!!!! =D

oh i wanna tell you all how stupid esther leow jiang jia brinjal can get ! i tried typing but it seems like i can't get the whole scene across cos there's too much dumb things she did . but then there's a video on how she play pool , just look at her face , you can never stop laughing ! =D
all in all , leow is the new dumbility !

thank God for yingjie , leow and meng , though meng left halfway but your effort is much appreciated by me =D thanks for supporting me , you all are very encouraging ! leow , thanks for the bubble tea =D WAN SHI RU EAST WAN SHUI ! hehe

GALATIONS 6:9
=D

2008-01-18T01:48:00.000-08:00

music -- free loop by daniel powter

YIPPEE ! HOORAY ! I'M NOT DEAD ! HEHE

i've set my new year resolutions...
i've gave thanks for 2007...
i expect much from 2008...

last year was a letdown , i wasted eight months ): but i breakthrough from it , i thank God He spoke , right through my heart , leaving me with no rooms for turning back . i also wanna thank God for bringing me through one of the major setback of 07 , o'level results and appealing of schools . that's what i call " hopeless but by God's grace ! " =D

last night my house downstairs got " getai " , i was so excited and randomly message all my sheep . but irene , that was a divine message right ! haha ever since royston's 881 movie , people started to pay attention to getai . i hope someone out there will soon revolutionise chinese new year songs... just like how awful hokkien songs can get , royston make it work ! =D

moving on
=D

2007-09-02T21:27:00.000-07:00

music -- what goes around comes back around by justin timberlake

MIRACLES . spell that . m.i.r.a.c.l.e.s =D
okei though it's not supernatural ones .

amazingly i prepared everything and left the house in eight minutes . people around me will know i take ages to prepare myself , and that's excluding my hair , obviously ! HAHA ! okei to let you have a better understanding of me , two and the half hour is just nice for me =D eULm supposedly should start at ten so i set my alarm at seven thirty . i allow myself only an hour of preparation cos i'm meeting yuyu eight thirty at tp bus stop ( that includes delay till nine ) . my alarm rang at seven thirty , i was tired and stupid at the same time so i pressed stop instead of snooze and went back to sleep . in my mind , i was dying to get up but yet sub-consciously i fell asleep for more than an hour , i thought it was a mere five minutes of rest . anyway , yuyu messaged me at eight forty eight and i jumped up , literally . i rushed like some siao ehh and i was already at my house downstairs at eight fifty six ! ! wahhhhh it's the first time i prepare so fast ! okei i didn't bathe xD heehee that's not all , i run all the way to tp bus stop upon seeing the approaching bus twenty three and boarded it . oh for your information , i don't run after buses , most of the time , i would rather be late xD

not long after we board the bus , we're at the PIE and we received an sms telling us that eULm starts at ten thirty instead . i was like... eeeyer ! i ran for nothing ! but never mind , the worst thing is we reached cuappage at nine thirty . can God tell me why the bus is so fast when we weren't late but when we're late , the buses are so slow =/ so in conclusion , we're an hour early for meeting ! i could have take my own sweet time admiring myself in front of the mirror ! HAHAHAHAHA ! but it's alright , i termed that as FEAR . cos i was so afraid that i'll be late on my first meeting =x i hope i fear more often hahaha !

after meeting we have " let joyce know you more " stupid name but funny lah , joyce cutie pie ! we went kbox to sing ! yeahness ! for the first time , after/during kbox , i didn't lose my voice though we sang for quite long hours . but seriously , our singing were horrendous . okei maybe except florence lah huh , if you don't know , she even won a singing competition before ! HAHAHA ! i bet she's gonna slaughter me , but who who cares , ask her about it yourself =D anyway joyce tan is sooooo powerful ! cos HER VOICE IS LOUDER THAN THOSE HOLDING MICROPHONE ! tell me , ain't she power ?!!? that explains why she's into POWERpuff , maybe last time she like POWER-ranger =D i think it's funny that we kept on celebrating jacq's farewell , i can see that you people want her to leave ! hahaha ! no lah , come back soon k ! you know you can't grow fat there , so please don't !

i left early and couldn't go for dance prac cos my parents want me to have dinner with them , since they're quite upset that i wasn't at home most of the time . during the trip to eat , there was a heated argument with them in the car , the atmosphere is totally lousy . hais... i better change to be more tactful and less bad-tempered . but still my parents brought me to han's =D then things started to get better and we talked nicely... thank God (: i reached home at about nine and as soon as i reached home , i got changed into more comfortable clothes and slept all the way till today morning six oclock =x i didn't care and continued to sleep till eight thirty cos supposedly the ULs are meeting at ten again but in the end cancelled hahaha . my intention of bathing and then spend time with my family last night was totally ruined . in the morning , i was lazy to bathe hahaha and so all in all , after so long , i finally sleep for more almost twelve hours and didn't bathe for more than twenty four hours =x ehh but now i've taken my shower =D

so you call that MIRACLES or what ?
by the way , this is a long post . but this post is lousy =x heehee
but hope i earn some taggers ? the pig's brain should be below by now =/

chanting : BREAK THIRTY !
( i still want to break thirty ! (: and i'm supposed to be praying , not chanting HAHA ! )
=D

2007-08-27T11:24:00.000-07:00

music -- unbelievable by craig david

ALRIGHT ! FOR THE SAKE OF MORE TAGGERS ! I'LL DO JUST SO TO UPDATE MY BLOG ! THOUGH I WANNA ABANDON THIS SITE BUT I THINK I WOULD NOT DO SO AFTERALL xD
hahaha florence's pig brain soup is causing a commotion and cos of this , so little people is tagging ! =/

two papers down but i know full well that i gonna do badly . well , guess this line may seem familiar to those who have been faithfully reading my blog , education sure have got something against me and it's utterly ruining me . given that , i rest my case . yeahness ! one last paper on wednesday , erm i'm not exactly happy anyway =x this is odd HAHA !

anyhow as people around me know , i am not someone who catches alot of movies , in fact i don't unless i have spare cash to use . yet i watched two movies in a month , this is really unbelievable . that's so unlike me ! caught secrets with dolphin and gang and 881 just now with my parents and their fellow friends , to me , auntie and uncle . i'd recommend secrets only when it's screening on a monday , tuesday and wednesday , and i'd not recommend 881 . i don't find it artistic , perhaps i am not artsy and not appreciative of arts ? HAHA the most funniest scene is when may and choy speak . their chinese is horrible and certainly , they're kinda o f a disgrace to chinese . haha wonder whose chinese could be as pathetic as theirs ! the female leads for 881 are so physical , in comparison to spider lilies ! =D i was so afraid that halfway through the show , the female leads end up turning homosexual or bisexual . thank God they were pure all the way throughout the show .

you're a green eye monster with a black face xD

exponential growth ,
=D

2007-08-19T10:08:00.000-07:00

music -- fix up , look sharp by dizzie rascal

it didn't took me long to realise that in every relationship we ought to draw lines . i made that mistake once and i don't wish to commit the same mistake again . however the lines that i drew made me fall into another pit hole . i am very clear that we can't cross over that particular line , if not the consequences would be severe . but the other party don't get it ): if only people can read in between the lines...

i thank God that my relationship with Him need not lines , i can cross over to Him and depend fully on Him =D probably God and i need a dot , then we can both stand on the dot and can never be seperated ? HAHAHA ! hmm now i am pondering about this , do husband and wife need line or dot ? weird !

i won't want you to cry in my arms ever again =x

re-dedication ,
=D

2007-08-14T12:59:00.000-07:00

music -- when you say nothin at all by ronan keating

i'm this close to __________ you . ( fill in the blanks )

so close =/

team dynamics ,
=D

2007-08-02T10:03:00.000-07:00

music -- mr. beasley by corrinne may

I ADMIRE GOD'S DETERMINATION AND SALUTE MY OWN CARELESSNESS !

i misplaced my phone thrice in mere four days ! the other time thrice in two days , does it mean i improved ? i wonder why is God so persistent in wanting me to lost my phone ? i'm not in need of a new one . but He always managed to help me find back my phone through kind souls (: i thank God for spicing up my life . i should be more aware of my valuables and don't be so absent minded =D

nearly did not go for my two tests , seriously my brain's dead and rotten and i couldn't get anything in . i have yet started studying and i didn't listen at all in lecture and tutorial . an hour before my paper , i decided to give it a shot once and for all . i don't know how this two tests will turn out to be and i don't wanna know =x anyway i hate rushing project =x

turn the situation around ,
=D

2007-08-01T00:41:00.001-07:00

music -- You rescued me by hillsong

ps : i'm gonna be late for worship prac , but i'll just take five minutes ! HAHA =D

this is pig's brain ar.. not mine . florence ate it.. and not only this piece , freaking alot of other pieces as well .

MY BRAIN'S OVERCOOKED !
take for example : if our brain is like food , then when we wanna eat it , first of all we gotta cook it first . and everyone knows that food can only be cooked once , there's no reversing . therefore our brains can only be used once . once cooked , considered gone ! gone down our tummy and out as something useless !
make sense right ?!!? i know i do lah ! HAHAHAHAHA ! xD

reason being why i conclude this is cos i had a crashcourse on what two subjects yesterday . i crashed my CKT chap ten to thirteen and Dfund chap five to seven that is covered in five weeks , i did it all in two and the half hour ! wah i am so pro ! HAHAHAHAHA and judging that i woke up at five plus the past two days and only had mere less than seven hours of sleep for the two days . I THINK I AM SUPERWOMEN ! or... ULTRAWOMEN ! xD heehee .

fruitfulness is my middle name ,
=D

2007-07-29T02:48:00.000-07:00

music -- let me die by nicholas tze ( i'm dying of boredom , seriously ! )

apparently i'm bored to tears , if not i wouldn't be appearing here . it's a sunday afternoon and i've got nothing to do... ( that rhymes ) well i intented to study but... you know , i freaking hell open my notes and i realised i freaking hell do not understand a single shit cos i freaking hell haven't been listening in class ! HAHAHAHAHA i only have myself to blame =x exams' like less than a month away and ohhhhhh nooooo ! tell me , am i dead or dead ? ANSWER MEEEEE ! boohoohoo .

i was blog hopping on some taiwan , hongkong and singapore stars . yea meet them :
xiao gui - www.wretch.cc/blog/alien3647
wu zun - www.wretch.cc/blog/wuchun10cool
jiro - www.wretch.cc/blog/gyapower
edison - http://blog.honeyee.com/edison/ , http://www.clotinc.com/blogs/public/edc/
corrinne may - www.corrinnemay.blogspot.com
denise - www.into-your-presence.blogspot.com ( highly recommended , obviously not joking ! )

alright i didn't totally waste my day away cos in a few moment's time , i'm leaving home for anniversary dance prac . oh by the way , gock's at my house , rotting together xD talking about rotting , last fri florence and yuyu came my house to watch thriller , wolf creek and slither . okei not as thrilling as i thought it'd be . no suspense at all , damn boring . i almost fall asleep okei ! slither was damn gory and gross... FREAK ! hate this kind of show . i wonder why those actors and actresses actually wanna be part of the film ? maybe they are given more money ? perhaps.. perhaps .

all i can do now is just hope and pray . given our game plan this week , if we still don't grow , i'll...... i'll....... not shave umpit hair and wear sleeveless ! HAHAHAHAHA ! ( crazy , i'm kiddinggggg ) thinking bout waking up at almost five everyday when i sleep at three plus , gosh , this is mad ! xD

ps : i'll change my blog style soon , soon yea ? HAHA ! =D

work through me ,
=D

2007-07-26T10:25:00.000-07:00

music -- angel in disguise by corrine may

spider lilies was a extreme bore , but i couldn't fall alseep . cos the whole movie was so slow , not those kind of keep you in suspend but you'll be so pissed off at how slow it can get that you can't get to sleep . lousy script , lousy production , lousy plot . LOUSY ! the two actresses are professional can , act as if they really homosexual like that . okei actually not , they do not mind homosexuality =x i think being bisexual is better than homo , more choices . but it doesn't implies to me haha ! when the sexual scene came , you can almost see everyone's face like " finally , after so long.. " but it wasn't very sexual afterall , cos ultimately they're still celebrities , can't ruin their own image . frankly speaking , the best part about the show was that when they make love , other than that , too draggy ! i hate the handless guy and that butch's brother not bad looking . wonder who is he.. hahaha and did i mention that the butch look like denise keller ! aww , just too hot ! the two twin's comments on the show was absolutely redundant , they're retarded hahahahaha ! but it's funny lah =D

MCG was... i don't know how to put it in words , aiya actually i seriously don't know how it's like . the sports were fun , if there's volleyball , that'd be greater ! xD SATURDAY'S ESS ! SO EXCITED ! (:

well you're the cause of everything . now i've completely understand what's the meaning of love and hate is just a fine line apart . say i'm childish , whatever . i'm not at all interested in your comments , dammit ! cause don't you find yourself irresponsible ? from now onwards , take responsibility for yourself ! or better still , look for someone else . i don't care a single shit if you feel comfortable with me , it doesn't matter anymore , i can't be bothered . leave , GET OUT of my sight ! your appearance irks me more than the feeling of being close to a damn lizard . i'm close to ________ you . don't push your limits . good bye , for good ! ):

disclaimer : i'm just venting , just ranting , plain frustrated . i'll be fine after awhile , whatever mentioned above will disappear as well ): for now , i lovehate you , lovehate this . ugh !

fill me with Your peace ,
=D

2007-07-24T11:28:00.000-07:00

music -- twenty five minutes by michael learns to rock

my effcom teacher is a absolutely lamer ! okei before i began how lame she is , i wanna say , my stupid friend , she pontang school then never ask me along ! so much for a friend ! HAHAHAHAHA ! i scared she bored then decided to go school , i was seriously reluctant lah . i turned up in school , after half an hour, i messaged her to check where she is . she said she's at home and not intending to come . what the ! then in the end i attended the dumb lab , i was practically not doing anything lah . went home cos i skipped lectures then went back to tutorial , my tutorial is only an hour but i was late for half an hour cos i overslept . here comes the lame part , i entered the classroom and surprisingly my teacher asked me to mark my own attendance . she said that i got the highest for test and if not because of that , i'll be considered absent . thank You , God ! hahaha..

going parkway parade was a total waste of time , never buy anything . so not fruitful ! xD i wanna go bugis ! i need serious retail therapy ! anyway today in school i borrowed a book " Gender Equity " , i only read the very very front part and i've considered converting to muslim and wear boys clothes . ( okei no link with the book =x ) haha no lahhhhh , that's just signs of emoism . digress abit , i am reverting back to my old ways ! how ar ?! ugh ! take control over my emotions when i see people with those please-slap-me faces especially when they provoke and trigger me .

yeahness , gonna watch spider lilies (r21) and devil wears prada tomorrow at gock's house ! heehee we gonna fast forward sexual scenes , i don't wanna gross myself out !

( well i update for the sake of maintaining my blog . i could almost feel every part of my senses and nerves screaming at me to stop typing but i don't wanna defy my heart of just maintaining it . so... it's the mind versus heart game =D )

i miss you more than a toddler whining for a gazillion of milk bottles..
get drunk , let's make out !

hosanna in the highest ,
=D

2007-07-23T02:40:00.000-07:00

music -- assuredly Yours by paradies live

tell me if this is amazing or what ?! okei though she may not be damn responsive to the word and available but tell you what ! she's a social freak ! she can bring many many haising people to me ! heehee xD i hereby wanna thank God for jingjing and esther leow jiangjia ( brinjal ) =D

k it's like this , i got home today after studying and dining with cranky tp people . i saw this message from brinjal " Hey u pioneering haising right? Jing's friend came my cg before, suddenly call me and ask me whether got friends to intro to her. I intro you to her can? Can i give her your number and etc? Lol. " so of course my reply was those sure why not kind and i asked for her name and such . right after brinjal replied me , i received a call and it's the unknown girl that wanna know more friends calling me . her name is shumin from haising sec one ! okei this is real funny , i know ! we talked for over an hour until around twelve , my sheep don't even wanna talk to me for over fifteen minutes on the phone =x ( i don't wanna mention names ) HAHA ! thank God i'm not a year older else she confirmed reject this friendship , but even if she reject , i thank God for younger believer in my caregroup =D ( it's a problem to be old(er) too hahaha ! ) she told me that she loves making webfriends and she've got over five hundred of them . the only thought i had was she's absolutely out of her mind ! and the worst thing is she told me that back then while she's still in primary school , there's a day she really wanna make more friends . she picked up her phone and anyhow dial a number and asked if the person is in secondary school and for their race , if it meets her requirement of twelve to seventeen and is chinese , she'll continue the conversation . mad girl ! she's extreme ! what a way to make friends =x the only barrier i had to bring her across the line of faith is she's a total devotee of buddha ( guanyingma ) ! and her dad's exceptionally strict . both her parents are members of a temple and she grew up there , got attachment ar... HAHA ! but i believe God and me gonna break down this barrier and bring her closer to Him . i'm meeting her this week and she said she'll contact me tomorrow... =D heehee and i really hope her believe in buddha not that strong cos teenagers seldom is a fan of guangying xD

i wanna thank God for the junyuan visitors , though they didn't convert but a seed is planted in them already . they were attracted to the group and i know they'll come back again ! make every visitor feel comfortable with us and they'll sure be back for the next one !
yea the last week of I.F , if you don't bring a friend down this week , then when ?! make full use of programmes when there is , it's a bonus !

my every word to you is sincere , i'm sorry ! ( inclusive of this )
even if i have to give up the world , i still love you (:
don't doubt me again...

assuredly Yours,
=D

2007-07-20T10:59:00.000-07:00

music -- crickets and the wind from the fan

yeahness ! we hit eighteen ! two more to twenty ! i should have just say our goal was twenty right hahahahaha =D but really thank God for the people serving so hard in the team . God honours your heart . let's not give up asking and working on them , they are precious to the kingdom and to us . we shall pray together that none of them fly us aeroplane and they'll experience and respond to God's love ! HAHA ! after our second ESS , we'll go for celebration together when we hit our end july goal k ! if God is for us , who can be against us ? i know all of us have been labouring hard , don't give up halfway , we ought to complete this race that offers absolute victory ! =D

everyone pray together k ! we shall wrestle with God in prayer ! =D let's work even harder next week =D JIAYOU ! =D

by the way , MCG was uber fun . cos I'm My Boss made my day . clinched deals that worth many many millions by myself . anyway though not many visitors turned up , in fact we only have two but i am sure they enjoyed themselves =D these two are so cute lor hahahahaha ! while jamie was playing I'm The Boss , she really looked like those little boss ! xD

GOD RAIN DOWN YOUR PRESENCE ON THOSE VISITORS TOMORROW ! (:

yes and amen ,
=D

ps: i've read xiaxue's blog.. eeeyer to her ! ( that's for flaming my friend ) well her posts are damn sarcastic , i almost couldn't survive reading finish her one entry cos i was busy puking . if she's an artiste , she ought to learn how to speak properly ( no vulgarities ) and at least have a POSITIVE media influence (:

2007-07-20T01:54:00.000-07:00

music -- the prayer by charlotte church and josh groban

AIYA I THINK I VERY STUPID ! LAST TIME I TOOK A LOOOONG TIME TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO CHANGE THE TIME AND DATE FOR MY ENTRIES AND THEN ALSO A LOOONG TIME TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO EDIT MY FONTS AND SUCH . THEN I FORGET ! NOW I HAVE TO RE-FIGURE ! BUT LIKE YOU KNOW ! GOD MAKE ME SMART ! SO I FIGURED OUT ! NEHHH , YOU SEE ! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA ( yea , i've told you i'm smart ! )

anyway , my mum's going nuts ! she's wants to marry me off ! i told her before i wanna get married before the age of eighteen and she scolded me for that . and now she wants to marry me off ! how could this be ? i mean , i am only seventeen ! oh no don't tell me my mum hates me... boohoohoo ! but it's like a few months ago she just said that i cannot have boyfriend and then a few weeks ago till today , she keep asking me to go marry someone . no wonder , i can further conclude that my mum's having menopause . thank god right now she's sleeping , else she's gonna flare up for apparently no good reason =x EHH ANYWAY WHO WANT ME ? THEN I CAN MARRY YOU ! HAHAHAHAHA no lahhhhh , kiddinggggg.. i am turning cranky .

sooooo... should i should i not . well perhaps let a coin decide my fate ? SHOULD I GO TUTORIAL TOMORROW ? okei i guess i'll go... xD

seriously , soften the hearts of my contacts ! soften the haising ground ! they ought to come and experience You . it's not about goals . it's about souls ! i believe cos i believe that i really believe you that You gonna make it happen ! THIS SATURDAY ! BY ALL MEANS ! =D

tomorrow's MCG and saturday's ESS , MOVE ! for all You can =D i'll do all that i can !

by the way i realised that i am quite consistent in updating heehee ( at least for now )

keep holding on ,
=D

2007-07-18T02:07:00.000-07:00

music -- keep holding on by avril lavigne

PRAY WITH ME AGAINST FLYING OF AEROPLANE K !

HAHAHAHAHA ! anyway , i wanna say , it hit you again =x and as usual , it flew to me , quadriple the pain it was as before during the first few times it hit you .
well , assumptions and assumptions and more assumptions ! why must people be judged every single day , by how they dress , how they relate , how they expressed themselves ? it doesn't matter to me what it is that people are assuming bout me but it matters to me hell lot when i found out that the person is you . i don't need you to assume how am i feeling , cos it doesn't concern you anyway , i lead my own bleedy life damn you . putting a stong front doesn't mean that every single bit is fine but it just prove that i don't want to reveal my feelings to you . i hate the way you guess my feelings and pretending that you know me well , you don't know me well enough , seriously ! YOU JUST DON'T UNDERSTAND ! it's alright if you don't understand but get this , don't bother anymore ! sometimes you're just taking things too seriously when i meant it as a joke . and well , if you don't like me kidding around , we can jolly well not converse anymore . i am only human...sometimes....i......i........ okeiiiiii stop being emo ! ugh ! ( NO ! LIFE'S STILL NOT A BITCH ! )
and people , don't try guessing who this person is , cos as seen from those who knows my blog , no one will know who that person is unless you're really super uber duper close with me =D

on a lighter note , SOUPSPOON IS SUPERB ALRIGHT ! florence will agree big big time =D went with her to city hall to try out their soup . i strongly recommend their clam chowder or.. if you're a mushroom lover , try their mushroom soup . i am not kidding , in every spoon of soup you scoop from your bowl , there'll be a clam inside ! the same goes for their mushroom , it's literally overflowing ! their cream is thick and rich , filling every single part of your tummy . the only way you can leave the fast food restaurant is saying " wah lau so full ! but worth it " and you won't be standing upright , but your body will like somehow bent cos you'll be simply tooooo fulllll =D i feel like trying their pumpkim soup after i had tasted their beef one .

ehh i tell you ar... wam night was powerful okei ! i was totally blown away and whatever that guy prayed for me was spot on . i mean i came to wam with a heart full of doubts and somehow uninterested with the ongoings . so when pastor lawrence asked if who wanna be prayed for , flow down the alse , i was like " since i'm here , might as well . i don't wanna make a wasted trip " so i quickly went off to prepare my heart , i dare say God didn't touched me at all while i was praise and worshipping Him . anyway then that guy prayed for me , i was afraid that he might know what's really going on in my heart , therefore i was kinda of reluctant to be prayed for but i settled it while waiting for my turn . he asked me for specific prayer request but i just told him i want a word from God , and bingo , he hit that part , right on ! i mean God hit that part.. haha ! okei the thing lies in , i wasn't ready for Him to speak , i prepared my heart last minute and the things that i don't want that guy to know , God actually used Him to tell me that i know you don't want.. but you ought to change that area in your life . i was still kinda of hardened cos i really don't wanna do anything bout it , but i guess afterall , i have no choice when it comes to do the truth . i gotta let go , i gotta open up , stop holding on to this ! =x Jesus come !
anyhow , florence and i thought that in burger king , we could have it our way but we're all wrong xD they should change their publicity !

anyway harry potter and the order of the pheonix wasn't such a letdown afterall . however comparing it with the previous harry potter series' , the standard did dropped but comparing it with other movies , it's still GOOD ! i love it ! but some parts were just too random , their plot wasn't nicely done =x boo to that ! thank God i didn't fell asleep during the movie cos it was a midnight one oclock show haha.. but i fell alseep right after the show xD

now on a higher note , I HANDED IN MY PROJECT ! yeahness ! like finally , cos school's computer doesn't have microsoft words 2007 , i had a hard and looooong time trying to put the thing . thank God for people like aloyooi and gock for extending a helping hand (:

haha as usual , i turned " aunty " again , this time not with runiang but gock . metro sales was on but i haven't been shopping =x i wanted to do some shopping for myself today but all those clothes that was on sales was terrible looking . or rather i wasn't observant and persistant enough to find golds in the midst of dungs . metro increased the sales to seventy percent ! all you typical singaporean , hurry up and buy ! did my early christmas and exam kit shopping =D heehee i am gleefully happy ! ( don't care if i'm able to phrase it like this HAHA ! )

not growing is a sin !
everybody , let's grow !
=D

2007-07-11T02:14:00.000-07:00

i've received comments that my blog's dead, rotten, decomposed, in the grave... and such. so before it gets any more worst, i've decided to blog until i've gotton rid of the twins' photo . ( actually i can just delete it but how come it didn't cross my mind when i was making the choice ? =x )

i'll just share with you the best board game you can ever play is... I'm The Boss and Citadel. though admitting that i once played monopoly all the way till the morning like bout six but these two is not comparable to other board games . okei the fact very much lies in who you're playing with , apart from knowing how to play , who you're playing with matters a whole lot difference . and i happened to be playing with people who gets cranky very easily . most of the time i was fascinated by other things but jacq , yuyu and shar made that day exceptionally enjoyable for me by the way they competes .

anyway all wasn't that well for yuyu and my group so on saturday we made a very very last minute decision and went out to night cycle and it turns out to be overnight instead . ( it's just to take a break and have some talk ) we've gotten lost , called people up , end up at others' void deck , had a " i love my sheep and shepherd project - hanging gifts at doorstep " and did many other silly things . the highlight but not very negative one for that day was that THE MOST DETESTABLE FAT AND UGLY HUGE BIG SIZE FAGGOT UNCLE GOT ON MY NERVES ! my mum called me twice at an unearthly hour which is four plus in the morning and scolded me for a feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeew minutes ( not very few after all ) alrighty first i was in his way , but can't he say "excuse me, i wanna cross..." he just kept on murmuring and knocked onto me with his big cage . like what the i'm already kinda of pissed , but being extremely nice , i gave way . awhile later , he walked past again with this big cage and this time knocked onto my bike and it almost fall , thank God for yuyu for holding on to my bike . i am boiling inside okei ! to think he even dare say that i was in the wrong , can't he just say hello miss i need to cross . can't he ? doesn't he have the most basic courtesy ? he's inconsiderate , rude , no manners , he's just a low salary prime mart worker ! HE IS FAGGOT ! HE IS ANNOYING ! THE SIGHT OF HIM IRKS ME ! HE SEEMS AS IF HE DOESN'T BATHE FOR DAYS AND WHEN YOU LOOK AT HIM YOU COULD ALMOST SEE THE STENCH HE CARRIES WITH HIM . YES YOU CAN SEE YELLOW AND DIRTY GREEN AIR ALL AROUND HIM ESPECIALLY HIS FACE ! HE JUST STINKS ! I DON'T LIKE HIM ! MY TOP MOST DETESTABLE PERSON IN THE WHOLE WIDE UNIVERSE ! okei back to my story , not long after , i hang up the phone with my mum and got on my bike ready to go off to shar's house . in my sinful nature , i saw the place where he had to tidy up and i went there to ransack the place . the stuffs were on the ground , though not many and not very messy , i went back and wanted to kick boxes at him but i didn't manage to do it . yuyu was stunned and i think she kept saying " what are you doing ?!!? " i was still angry but we went off , but i was very tempted to go back to pull down all of his big cages and he'll have a hard time getting it up . aww i just love to see that very scene ! ( aiya anyway i repented already , so won't see that happening again =x )

due to the fact that i was too naughty on saturday night i decided to stay home on sunday . actually is sleep whole day hahaha ! but saturday i reached tampines really early like six to watch dance performace vibes 5 . right hand rule is really cool . anyway do you know why i am not cool ? COS I'M HOT ! xD blahblahblah

i had gelare today and altogether joyce and i wasted three dollars and thirty cents . we had one whole piece of waffle that we can't finish . wonder why i am so full today even when i just drank bubbletea and ate some some fries .i think the standard of gelare dropped cos last time the ice cream and waffle was superb but now it's like just normal . okei but then again , maybe i'm full ? anyway gelare's still not that bad , not say very worth it , not say not worth it =x
and according to runiang , i've becoming more and more aunty but unashamedly i am not ashamed of my actions . like there's this hand sanctifier thingy that's opened by some inconsiderate people in sheng siong and i happily used it three to four times in less than five minutes . say i'm paranoid or cheapskate ? HAHAHAHAHA =x then we saw this promotion , one packet of maggie mee is twenty cents , eight packet for one dallr ! ehh very good bargain , and i bought sixteen ! runiang bought eight ! HAHAHAHAHA very auntie lor ! after which i fill in this lucky draw thing then we each had one dallar and fifty cents mee robus/mee soto . okei and being auntie ends today , it takes brain to be calculative , now i know it's sometimes challenging for my mum to do the shopping .

by the way , join forces with me to pray for east c one , haising , junyuan and st hilda's k ! HEEHEE xD

pray and pray and pray and pray and pray !
help me help me help me help me help me !
Fully
Rely
On
God
do His work with Him
=D

2007-06-17T08:29:00.000-07:00

yeah-ness ! blogging again ! have been trying to convince myself and getting people to persuade me to update my blog but to no avail . the don't-feel-like-it mood always surpass the other mood . this is very true okei , cos people always uses don't-feel-like as a reason .

well i'm back again due to camp ! alright since many people have been blogging bout what happened in camp and encounters with God , i shall give it a miss and just give a brief account of what are the few things that slapped me hard ! (:

first thing first , to love God love people . for like God knows how many times He have been saying already but i'm always like " amen i'll change ! " and yes , everyone know it , i never did . this camp He spoke to me during worship and through the backing of the word . only through a loving community , then can a group grow and attract and cause people to be retained in the kingdom . next God gave me a vision , forget during when , think it's first or second praise and worship . i actually forget about this vision , when shar asked me if i had any vision , i sadly replied no ): until yesterday after service then i was reminded of it hahahahaha ! so stupid right , how can i forget my vision ? anyway , i'm so afraid this vision will come to pass . but like hello , who knows vision won't come to pass one ? you must be thinking why i don't want it to be realised , cos my vision goes like this . i saw a plant or a tree ?? i forget how exactly it looks like but it doesn't matter , what matters is that the tree wither then it's left with only a few leaves but quickly the tree blossomed and produced better looking leaves which is greener and larger . there's even hot red flowers =D ( if it really withers means quite bad lah =x but they'll be back in no time cos the tree really blossom back like in split seconds ! )

" Run with faith , run with motivation , run with endurance , run with inspiration... " this is the voice of God that pierced right through my heart while i was crying out in the toilet . i remember during the concert at the third day , i was sooooo desperate , i kept asking God how , what to do if people do not want to move on with me . until the point i went to the toilet after praying for my people and kept on praying till God spoke . phew i felt so much better and was so assured of God being with me through and through ! =D

in fact most of us met our objectives during the first or second day of camp , and perhaps we should really pack our bags and leave the campsite first cos testings came during the third day of camp . so timely ! but thank God we're still secure in Him =D but again , like hello we're in camp , during that period waver means something's wrong ! HAHA !

CG08 ! that conviction He placed in our hearts ! it's not a emotional thing ! i was still quite emotion driven till during saturday's PLm , dennis mentioned that even if no one's moving , as PL or merely as christians we ought to stand up and GO and conquer the land ! because God sees that we're willing , God sees that we want to fulfil His promise even when no one is following us , He'll use us even greater than the rest ! =D it's a decision we have to make , and i've decided to aid HAISING CATHOLIC SECONDARY SCHOOL to be set free from the bondage of sins ! =D

yupyup so , for pictures please go to : http://s183.photobucket.com/albums/x142/sallyrockss/First%20Frontier%20Camp/?start=80

i promise to update more frequently alright ? this is a LOOOONG post ! =D

2007-04-25T23:59:00.000-07:00

seems like i'm still early to wish myself a very happy birthday ! HAHA ! =D special thanks to every single one out there that wished me happy birthday , you know who you are ! thanks , thanks and thanks a million =D those who called and wished me , through msn , sms , face to face or even during caregroup =D

to tell you the truth , i've forgotten that today's my birthday until shuhfen wished me happy birthday last night at twelve sharp ! once again , thanks for everyone's heart that you all remembered or may it be through hints by me or the people around me =p

alrighty let's playback , had engine camp ! okei it was boring to a certain extent especially the waiting part . we have to wait for our lucnh to arrive , our toolbox , our textbooks and other classes to get ready . so virtually we waited throughout the whole day ! unexpectedly , engine lost and came in last at the competition . my presence surely makes a very big difference cos once i left halfway , engine started losing . i'm sorry that i caused such a great impact =p that three days camp helped the class to get together and strangely really united at the end of the three days . many other classes are still struggling to get to know each other and yet my class is already fooling around with one another . oh well , though i skipped the camp for two days to slack and also for caregroup but i managed to build close relationship after school start =D so far so good (: lectures and tutorials are totally a waste of time for these few days cos we know all these facts at the tip of our fingertips . i hope i can learnt something else , oh and without myself complaining . i am very prone to all these , Lord help me to love this course =D everybody , pray for me ar... take five minutes to pray for me every night !

oh and i had first ec1 cg , not bad lah , we had fondue ! awesome stuff but the quality wasn't awesome . cos it tasted seriously weird . we hit twelve for cg and ten for service ! haha i thought it should be the other way round ? anyway thank God it was fun and the new believers felt that it was fun =D saturday our identity was to wear stripes , cool we're all out of jail ! HAHAHAHAHA ! then today cg hit eight , it was a little bit bad in terms of quantity and quality . praying for service to have full attendance which is fifteen ! Lord helppppp ! i want all the new believers to come and all those who ain't doing well to come too ! they are important in the kingdom ! =D

i have a to-buy-list , i need serious retail therapy k !
1. vintage sunglasses
2. tote bag or " those kind of backpack " ( large enough to stuff my freaky textbooks ) still convincing my sis to buy for me haha
3. ladies sandals ( those with one strap kind )
4. ladies tee ( green or blue ) and sleevesless top ( any colour will do )
5. skinny jeans or trousers ( light blue and white )
6. a couple of skirts
7. shorts preferably white
8. accessories ( yea anything )
9. sneakers
* not that important or rather can never afford for now *
10. laptop
11. handphone
12. aiya those electronic devices =x

so all these adding up for the higher rating ones would cost me about three hundred and fifty bucks ! haha i dreaming now , to be a zillionaire ! =D so i can have everything i want ! i have my family and relatives , i can have true friends too , cos i have Jesus my best friend , the rest of the church and other friends =D
yes i am dreaming... =p

this may be cliche
but life is full of regrets =x

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO CAIJUAN , YINGJIE , DAREN , CLARENCE , AUNTY ( JACQ'S MUM ) AND MYSELF ! =D ( still not belated as yet ! HAHA ! )

2007-04-13T11:10:00.001-07:00

the touching moments . east c grads , you made my day =D

let's play a game ! spot the differenceS and similarity ( if you notice , one is plural and the other is singular )

differences :
1) eyes
2) skin's fairness
3) mouth
4) ... ... ...
5) ... ... ... ( fill in yourself )

similarities :
1) equally spastic

i don't wanna be so bad , but during our last cg we went geck's house and geck's sister triggered me . she commented and laughed saying " haha tell me in that way are they alike " ( in chinese ) since then i couldn't help but kept laughing silently , it's tough you know . sorry twins =D heehee

anyway for those that have yet been updated , i'm going TP's ETCM instead of MDIS mass comm . however , i'm still a very good promoter of MDIS =D come ask me... with me around , you can make your decisions with the best informations =D ( financial issue , distance , recognition , career prospect , university choices , course modules and many more =D ) haha

i also have soft spot on celebrities but not THAT MUCH as the people out there (:
http://www.wretch.cc/blog/gyapower
http://tw.search.yahoo.com/search/blog?ei=UTF-8&p=%E5%A4%A7%E6%9D%B1&searchtype=photo
mrs jiro wang dong cheng tai tai aka mrs dadong (:

http://blog.honeyee.com/edison/
i'm lazy to find the rest , there are like louis khoo tian le , ashton kuthcer and more . at the end of the day , i'm still a girl =x oh i have childish sides , look out for elmo , superman , ultraman =D

for females , denise keller blah blah blah and myself =D
reclaimer's note : i'm not obsessed with them , please don't be stumbled (:

ultimately ,
i'm married to Mr Jesus Christ xD

2007-04-12T03:47:00.000-07:00

blogging tests doesn't equate to having a boring life . i'm just trying to put across the point that blogging these tests DOESN'T make you any cooler , why did the creator of that web even think of that name . i seriously don't find it at all attractive to anyone . well and also doing tests like these are not accurate at all , don't rely on it . i am not happy while entertaining others , i felt like a clown . i don't like entertaining others but somehow i have to... that visual test is also not accurate , i like it because it's visual =D maybe i am very visual ? haha

i had a happenning week , in just two days i had BBQ and steamboat . did i mention that we had truckloads of macdonald as well .
on tuesday i went BBQ with my schoolmates ( cos all of us are from different classes but somehow we got together ) at kevin's condo . his flat is so ulu , we gotta walk uphill and right into his apartment . we had a awesome time catching up with one another , BBQ , playing childish games , play station and poker cards , watching movie . we stayed over at his house and slept like super early in the morning . these people are kevin , esther , ruoxuan , suping , jovene , qiying , yikai , junyuan , daryl , zixiang , junwei , chenchuan , denver , kingston and me.. did i leave anyone out ? haha some of the rest couldn't make it , they missed out the fun =D
left kevin's house and head to meet my caregroup to have last caregroup . was dead beat but thank God that He refreshed me with His word . we played sports and then yuyu and i went home first , afterwhich we went geck's house for steamboat and affirmations . oh the video is superb alright =D though not of very high quality and standard , but our faces make up for it =D we're heading different directions and goals now , but our hearts will always unite as one because Christ stands in the middle =D thanks for the laughters and affirmations , every single one of you are important to me . reunion is coming our way soon and very soon =D

i'm lazy to update that's why the entry's kinda of rush , i gotta get going now . i'm running later because jiali said so , so i must . HAHAHAHAHA

take my hand
be my guide =D

2007-04-11T09:58:00.000-07:00

some had been complaining that i'm not updating my blog , guess it's time for me to do so =D

for what happened on april's fool , please refer to my sister's blog www.girlindisguise.blogspot.com and search for the post =D my cousin held his wedding dinner on that day , it wasn't a joke ! oh by the way sorry geck , i fooled you =x
saturday night , please refer to this link www.amazed-by-you.blogspot.com and scroll down =D no doubt , it's yuyu's blog .
haha sorry lazy to type ar... this will happen more often from today onwards =D

anyway saw this at yuyu's blog and out of curiosity i went to do it as well , the heading in the webby actually states " Blogthings - Cool Things To Put In Your Blog " so without any further talk , let me show you how " cool " it is okei ! =/

You Are An ESFP

The Performer
You are a natural performer and happiest when you're entertaining others.A great friend, you are generous, fun-loving and optimistic.You love to laugh - and you like almost all people equally.You accept life as it is, and you do your best to make each day fantastic.
You would make a good actor, designer, or counselor.

What's" Your Personality Type?

ehh look ! COOL anot ? COOLNESS OKEI ! ! WAH ! =x
HAHAHAHAHA

did another one to have double the cool ! DOUBLE COOLNESS OKEI ! DON'T PLAY PLAY WITH ME ! I ROCK LIKE ROCKING CHAIR CAN ! =D

You Are a Pinky

You are fiercely independent, and possibly downright weird.
A great communicator, you can get along with almost anyone.
You are kind and sympathetic. You support all your friends - and love them for who they are.

You get along well with: The Ring Finger

Stay away from: The Thumb

What Finger Are You?

oh gosh ! i am pinky ! you know ! it's pinky and the brain brain brain brain brain brain.................................yes this can go on forever and ever amen ! HAHA ! meaning yuyu must stay away from me ! how cool is this right ! HAHA ! oops i kind of wanted to be pinky so badly but when i realised i was pinky , i knew how crap this test is ! i get along with yuyu well k ! =x

TA-DAA ! tell me ! is this like COOL or COOL ? maybe it can be make me the coolest girl in town if i post three test up correct ? so it'd be....... yes you are right ! TRIPLE COOLNESS ALRIGHT ! HEEHEE ! =p

in a nutshell , this entry proves that i am a COOL girl ! =D HAHAHAHAHA

yes seriously i don't rely on tests like this , ever wonder if there is something more visual ? something that you see and identifies with , rather than using plain words to describe... it's time to get real VISUAL ! =D i think this is much cooler , not many people learnt about this thing as soon as i did =p HAHAHAHAHA come on babes and hunks , let's bring the house down in a COOL way ! =D

Read my VisualDNA™ Get your own VisualDNA™

try it out , i tell you , it's like MUCH better than doing those bullshit test ! this is yet another test but i bet you can identify with the pictures more =D let's get VISUAL . wait till i find a audio one haha =D click on the " GET YOUR OWN VISUAL DNA " choose the picture that best describe you , if you don't feel right with any of the pictures , click on the grey box =D

have fun alright , i'll be back . tell me what kind of person you are =D ( this is just to increase the number of people tagging , as usual , don't be a silent reader ! MAKE SOME NOISE ! =D )

till then , cheers ! =D

at the cross
You're mighty to save ! =D

2007-04-04T04:14:00.000-07:00

extracted this entry from jolene tan's blog :

had a recent thought about shepherd and sheep.
many ppl feel that whenever the sheep has a problem, its the shepherd's fault. but dun ppl understand that shepherds can't control the sheep? shepherds can only give advice and its up to the sheep if they want to listen. shepherds can't force anything on their sheep. but if the sheep dun want to heed the advice what can the shepherds do? nothing but pray.

its not easy being a shepherd. sheep tend to put their expectations on you, want you to meet their needs, when they are not happy they tell the whole world except you, only want to be served and not serve others.

truths about shepherds.
shepherds are here to guide the sheep's spiritual life not to pamper and spoil them.
shepherds are here to bring them closer to God not to please their sheep.
shepherds are here to serve people, not to wait on you.
shepherds are here to speak the truth and not tell what the sheep likes to hear.

sheep on the other hand should submit to their shepherd fully regardless if they are good, bad, spiritual, unspiritual, etc. David submitted to Saul even when Saul wasn't walking right with God and anyway who are we to judge if they are good or bad leaders. God will do the job unless you want to be judged this way too. sheep should not bad mouth their shepherd even if they aren't as good as the sheep thinks. if your shepherd is not doing well, you should pray for them instead of badmouthing them. how does it help by talking behind their back? if your shepherd is not good(or so in your definition.), just shut up and leave it to God, He will settle it.

sub·mit
1. to give over or yield to the power or authority of another (often used reflexively).
2. to subject to some kind of treatment or influence.
3. to present for the approval, consideration, or decision of another or others: to submit a plan; to submit an application.
4. to state or urge with deference; suggest or propose (usually fol. by a clause): I submit that full proof should be required.–verb (used without object)
5. to yield oneself to the power or authority of another: to submit to a conqueror.
6. to allow oneself to be subjected to some kind of treatment: to submit to chemotherapy.
7. to defer to another's judgment, opinion, decision, etc.: I submit to your superior judgment.

conclusion. its never easy being a shepherd. treasure them instead of complaining about them. you have no idea how much trauma they've been through. if only you could be in their shoes.

haha this happened to me once but my sheep(s) now has never done all this to me . so sheep , you can rest assured =D previously when this happened was between like leaders and members kinda of stuff when they ain't willing to go ahead with our plans and all.. causing troubles and stuff like that . but despite all these , these people will always be greatly treasured in my heart =D

phew it had been not a very hectic weeked but it was kinda of packed . not by alot of programmes but by having to settle many cases that happened in ministry . through God's grace , all had been settled in a very heart warming manner . if you happened to be reading this , just wanna let you know that whatever i spoke to you is true.. thanks for placing that trust in me.. i'll just do my very best to be what i ought to be =D ( whatever i needed to say i've said during that phone conversation... ) haha

my mum got a little bit strange yesterday . she woke up in the middle of the night forcing me to switch on the computer at three fifteen despite my continual refusal . finally i relented and i made a comment that i was hungry and she enthusiastically initiated to cook maggie mee for me.. okei she's strange , but in a very nice way . she actually wanted to me check out some stuff on the internet . but any mum with the right mind would like chase their daughters to bed and wake them up the next morning in an unearthly timing like five ? but she's different , no wonder she's mummymo ! =D woots ! by all means , the noodles made me felt that staying up late is worth it =D

seriously i hate crossroads . yea i know that it's all for me to mature and things like that.. but i just don't like it . to the point , detest crossroads . have to decide but don't know what to choose , be in a dilemia , consider many many factors... aww all this nonsense stuff . i didn't know that doing so badly for olevel i still actually have choices for me to choose and made . sometimes i'd rather it turns out to be like it's the end or something like that =x haha anyway RP sent me two enrolment letters , the courses are biomedical electronics and mirco and nanotechnology through both DAE and JAE respectively . i declined their kind offer and registered for MDIS diploma in mass communications , then not long after TP sent me another enrolment letter through DAE , the course is some no brainer course called electronics/telecommunications/computer engineering/microelectronics . yes exactly... i see the course name i feel like vomitting . but the thing lies in MDIS is far though i really love the course and it's expensive ( not sure if i could get the SDF grant ) , TP is like so near can ! definitely much easier for me to do ministry . so it all lies with whether i just wanna get a diploma and do something that when i study i'll be puking or get far and afresh with mass comm and graduate with a degree from there . look , there i go again , crossroads . sigh =x

choices , yet to be made again .
i've not decided .

fulfilling my destiny =D

2007-04-01T01:51:00.000-07:00

i was just wondering should i update my blog or allow it to rot like how i did it last time ? well till now i have yet thought of an answer but i've already started blogging . hence the answer seemed to be apparent =D

if anyone of you chanced upon the prime supermarket in tampines block eight hundred plus , please kindly proceed in and mess up their every single goods . why ? simply they owed me bucks ! two hundred plus closing to three hundred lor ! i'm already kind enough not to mention that some of their staff are especially rude and their sight just irks us . we have like the top detestable people in prime and so on =x HAHAHAHAHA ! anyway had fun working with the few people at prime that night , most of the time i am slacking ( as usual ) . but i managed to finish what i ought to do and even did extra ! ( like always ) gosh i am really efficient ! =D

i miss the presence of the rest of the grads ! but thank God i'll be classmate with that dumb jol for four years till we earned our degree ! =D if some of you don't know , i'll be going MDIS taking mass communication . moral of the story : irregardless of whether jol and i did well or not , we still ended up taking a course that we always liked =D

freak ! my group consists a bunch of shameless people ! know why ? because we went around the streets doing idiotic stuff for half an hour . i dare say that they are also courageous people ! if we dare to have such embarassing moments , sharing the gospel in a radical way can mean peanuts to us as well =D by the way if your pool skills really cannot make it , don't waste money and pay by hourly rate , pay by per game . because one game you play may takes up to thirty minutes and per game is just like two dollars compared to one hour nine dollars =x cut costs ! save up ! =D
oh crap , i feel like playing pool and so on and so forth ! the list can never stop =D
and can someone stop me from speaking and thinking nonsense and let my brain react three times faster than my mouth ? thanks a million ! =D

Your calling
and i shall answer
=D

2007-03-28T10:45:00.000-07:00

my caregroup fly me aeroplane , i shan't elaborate . hahahahaha i'm okei lah .

had caregroup today with the few of us that stayed on . i wonder how did it goes after i left for dancefloor recording . anyway come to think of it , we're really a bunch of naughty people... going against things and ain't serious . we certainly don't look like a high school graduate . what a shame !

oh talking about dancefloor recording , once again , great stuff ! though the genre culture dance wasn't very appealing to us but still through it we learnt that creativity for a cheorographer is really important . it acts as a boost to the whole dance , adding on to it , you need impact , energy and emotions . well dancing afterall isn't so easy as i thought it was a few years ago . there's something i certainly took ages to master it and that is flexibility . with flexibility it's easier to be a versatile dancer =D

it felt really strange because in fact we took the tickets from batucadus supporters so in fact we ought to be cheering for them . however before the real filming even start , they had to eliminate one of the bottom three and batucadus happened to be eliminated . there and then the few of us were stunned , i mean we got the tickets from them and then such things happened .

platinum is good , they portrayed girl's power ! haha and i think fantastic four very entertaining . i like vas and pris , strong ballroom dancers =D did i mention that right after batucadus is eliminated , their supporters turned their backs and supported melvin and sharon . no lah that's because they are actually sisters... so connected haha .

i am unhappy because the audience really dislike lilin ): how can ? she's so pretty , okei i agree that she's biased but she's still pretty ! she gives off this feminine confidence that's so charming and attractive ! oh no i must confess i am homosexual =x ehh nooooo i am joking ! i am hundred and one percent straight ! haha ! still the audience are really bad , they kept on talking back to the judges . count the judges unlucky to meet such ungracious people . okei the good thing is i caught another glimpse of how working in mediacorp is like... fun ! not sure if i am really made and cut out for media but i am determined to prove myself capable . i don't know how but just whack !

i don't know how my future is like but i know who holds my future
=D

2007-03-25T23:43:00.000-07:00

farewell and farewell and more farewellsssss ):

okei no i must make this as a rejoicing moment ):

ehh denise leong , rejoice leh ! ): =x =/ (: =D

this is really difficult but still in any situation we ought to be giving thanks because this temporal seperation is for each of us to grow stronger in christ =D

last mass shepherding - thanks sheep , i enjoyed each and every of your presence in my life ! seriously i appreciate you so so so so so so much , though i faced rejections from you all but through all these , it made me love you all even more , wanting to know more about you . i can never say enough to thank all of you , moulding and growing me . making me realise how to be a better shepherd =D i'll never forget all the times we spent together , chatting till the next morning on the phone , spending time together at marina bay ( the kite flying , bowling , arcade and steamboat ) , the overnight... sorry that i can't spend even more time with you all doing some other stuff that you really wish to do ): and sorry for not expressing my love to you outwardly but you know my heart , some things you don't have to keep on saying =D but i love you lah =D - to meiyi , serene , geckting , runiang and florence ( not in any particular oder )

east c grads last caregroup - thanks for putting in the effort to trek in pulau ubin , what a place to go but i'm sure we enjoyed ! =D the dinner we had together after that , all the laughters and all the joy . ( oh no i am starting to tear ): ) i love this family of God very much , remember the days we started coming together to prepare for our o level ? =D going through the studying days while the non grads laugh at us =x haha going through the major examinations after that celebrate when it's all over =D during christmas and ex3 , collecting the harvest though somehow we didn't managed to retain all of them =/ then when we collect our olevel and posting results , those weren't very good time to pass but i am glad that i have this group of friends that is dedicated from God to me ! at least you girls managed to entertain us during our low times =D we went thorugh the downs and ups , losing some people and winning some people over . this whole period of time , you girls grew me alot ! =D oh remember the days we held our mcg and cg , haha it was so messy lah can ! but still through God's grace we got through it =D thanks for tolerating my nonsense =p and for letting me know that God is always in the middle of our relationship that's why we come thus far =D thanks girls , i love you all alot ! - to meiyi , serene , geckting , runiang , florence , qinning , chiamin , xueyin , jasmine , dionis , joleen , yanyu , jeslin , peychyi , shuhfen , huijuan , pooiyee , kaysee , kerlyn , tryphoza , liling , angelin , brenda , eileen... ( not in particular order )

last dennis meeting and service - i hate the fact that i must typed " last " ): anyway dennis meeting made us realised how important each and everyone of them are in our life ! the video , last holy communion and thanking each other , i wonder are we thanking or just crying . i'll really miss you all ! how ?!!? we really must hang out together again ! fulfill each other's wish , ice skating , night cycling , halloween party , play pool and so on ! =D i'll miss all those who will be moving on ! let's form alumni fast haha ! - to all moving on ! =D

CL retreat - fun stuff =D four bucks for the journey there , the chalet and had two serving of rice haha then after that eat mac breakfast at four again =D i didn't know CLs are all so glutton =p we played station games , my game group is really so funny especially with jiehui and DK around . then east went to buy drinks at 7-11 around ten plus and we're stuck there till six (: cos it was raining and we did alot of stupid things there , and when the rain stopped we played captain ball and volleyball repeatedly for many rounds . but seriously i don't like caps , cos it's tiring to keep on chionging for the ball =x guess i'll stick with volley though it's painful ( now my hand's swollen and blueblack ) i forget to mention that joyce tan whacked my face , now it's still painful , thank God not disfigured =p haha we went for breakfast then walked back to our chalet , then it's already six plus but many pangseh us and went home without watching sunrise ): haha but can understand , we played ball the whole night . we didn't catch the sunrise either , we slept at seven , we had only like two hours to three hours of sleep then joyce tan , yuyu and i went to meet jes , flo and jacq at vivo . had fun shopping with them and helping some thai people to get to the cable cars =D when i got home , i had this feeling that i had a dream just now... i wonder did i do anything abnormal in vivo =x
i slept for around sixteen hours ! wonderful ! but time wasted ):

anyway i wanted to do a dedication thingy but i guess there's not much time left... i'll post it the next time round =D

and yes... the jokes will always remain funny .
=D

2007-03-22T10:58:00.000-07:00

presenting to you my missions team ! =D they are seriously a bunch of crazy , radical , mad , cranky , typical , random , spastic , idiotic , retarded , stupid , dumb , nonsense... ( this can go on forever )
these people are :
christine ( team leader - she always laugh at us )
liyi ( auntie )
tryphoza ( the oh-so-random girl )
esther ( like alwyas... esther 2:7 )
aloysius ( roy )
benjamin ( aka minmin , xiaomin , benben , ben-gie... )
denise ( me - the most normal one around ! =D )

anyway i am all along ready to blog mission trip post but all i lacked was the photos , though up till now the photos ain't ready yet but still i think i'll have to curb my desire first by posting some neoprints first =D
this two person that was with us were jennifer and keng ( pronounced as " kengk " ) not forgetting another sister called nice that brought us around alot too =D thank God for them , they sacrificed alot alot alot on us . there are still others that brought me around , like pastor chayawit , pastor hansa , pastor au , gan , tid , shasha , bird and many many more . i'm really so blessed to be able to know them ! =D i am missing them so much can ! ): and also my team , they are funny people ! (:
i shared before in my first entry when i revived my blog that i learnt much in missions =D i am just seriously dying to get the pictures ! hurry up and send to aloy then collate and send me !

alrighty i'm missing them
spinning in my head - i'm thinking of you , i drive myself crazy

2007-03-18T22:09:00.000-07:00

probably this post might be a little too stumbling or " unspiritual " for some people but heck !

as you can see yuyu is always the one inside the picture , hugging or being hugged . look how depressed meng is when yuyu is hugging jol . before that they were an item ! seems like i am the only STRAIGHT person amongst the four of us =D anyway this took place in genting when none of our leaders and people are with us , so that's why their real self surfaced =/ the three days three nights together spent there and travelling certainly brought them much closer , no wonder they always point out that i am the outcast =x however i'm glad to be the outcast (:

jol's , meng's and yuyu's people , please do not waver regarding your leader's act . i hereby wanna affirm them of their brave acts in showing their true self . plus they are really good leaders that will always love and serve you !

ps : jol , meng and yuyu , don't slaughter me ! thank you =D

checkmate ? think about it (:

2007-03-16T09:59:00.000-07:00

reason being why i did not blogged at all for the past few weeks was basically i had to undergo many tough situations . well not that i don't wish to be real and blogged my feelings out but i don't think there's a need and i don't have the mood to blog nor care about anything else . apparently it's due to my o'level results and posting results and many other ministry stuff , family and personal struggles and many many many many many... thinking back it was indeed torturous to go through all these but i really thank God that i managed to pull through and even came to understand and accept God's planning . many nights i teared myself to sleep , thankfully it's all over now ! haha imagine one whole month , wah utterly and awfully pathetic ! =x alrighty enough of bad memories ( though they were the ones that made me stronger and grow ) , let's move on with life =D

anyway i went for missions at thailand , Hope Nakhompathum ( whatever it is spelt as )
awesome stuff !
yet God spoke something that doesn't even depicts awesome , it's something call " simplicity " , then God assured me with another picture that shows a child and a father , simple life yet satisfying ! that's enough , one word and a picture is enough ! =D i don't need so much now... the people there are really simple but with a sincere and genuine big heart for God , with these it portrayed the greatest love in this world . the simplicity that also reaches out to the hearts of many... =D
WOG ! it's about hunger !

building sandcastle in the sky became a much more practical issue to me but instead of it being in the sky , this time round it's really on the beach . follow upper camp made me understand the heart of a shepherd more and paint out what a sheep really needs =D not that i do not know but i seldom practise , call me a coward , i do not dare express =x i need time and courage !

i'll continue to blog when i got all the pictures for east reunion dinner , mission trip and follow upper camp ! =D till then , cheers ! (:

i'm getting emo , i miss the people in bangkok ! ):

2007-02-06T22:42:00.000-08:00

alrighty !

i want to be healthy !
though i did blood acidity and fats test , and it showed that i am healthy . I STILL WANT TO BE EVEN MORE HEALTHY ! ( by the way , all these tests are free and they come after me , not the other way round =D )

the truth is , i don't feel healthy =x

I NEED TO EAT FRUITS , VEGETABLES , EXERCISE , DRINK PLENTY OF WATER AND HAVE SUFFICIENT REST !

yeah the dancers are going to run together ! so glad bout it but one thing i am scared , i can't even pass my 1.6km and i flunked my 2.4km in the the worst timing =x this is really gonna force me to build up my stamina =D

aiyo i don't want to be weak anymore =D oh not forgetting , to be flexible ! haha

okei this is very tough decision for me to make , so keep watch over me . i might give up any moment =x

The Fit And Healthy Denise WANNABE =D

2007-01-29T02:09:00.000-08:00

while i was walking through the crowded shopping centre to catch a glimpse of feilunhai , i suddenly got very emotional . not that i know i can't get to see them and this will never be the slightest reason , but because i saw multitudes but none were here for something spiritual instead something temporary . i kept thinking why is it that these people do not want to run towards Jesus but idols ? isn't God's love deeper than these idols , God did so much for us and even these talents or appearance they have were also given by God . the more i think , the more emo i get and at a point when i saw that people are singing their song so loudly and with all their sincerity , my heart almost break . i'm wondering how God would feel when at that point of time my tears rolled off my eyes , His heart must be feeling more painful .

it is definitely not at all heart warming when you see people chasing after idols but when people lifting up their hands to God , we felt a sense of awesome feeling =D all these people in the world really need to know The Greatest Love , have the greatest purpose and live the greatest life ! all these things can't satisfy them , they lack life to the fullest ! i seriously feel for all these people . i have friends who go after almost every artiste , band and such , does it show that she really lack something in her life . something is missing and the thing is God , only God can then fill the void in her and in the rest of the people .

why do these people choose go queue up for idols rather then going to church ?
WHY ? tell me why ! we need to do something fast to this world . don't ever forget our identity is a child of God and our purpose on earth is to fulfil The Great Commission ! =D we are in the world , but not of the world , so as to influence the world ! together we shall Make A Difference to this world that's getting into nowhere but hell !

if You can use anything
use me !
=D

2007-01-29T01:47:00.000-08:00

finally i understood what it means by chasing after idols , you know bands or celebrities like 5566 and f4 . okei pardon me for living in the past but it's never ever my interest to chase after idols , to me , it's always a CHASING AFTER THE WIND . meaning , MEANINGLESS =D ( notice it's all in CAPITAL LETTERS , bold in RED and large size font )

supoosedly i should wake up at nine oclock to meet yingjie at ten to pass her SS notes then meet my SOW eleven at bedok mrt station . my alarm clocked rang at nine and i woke up , sub-consciously i stop it and unknowingly went back to sleep . i jumped out of bed at eleven though reluctantly , checked my handphone with eyes almost closed and not to my horror , saw five missed calls and three sms =x
let's not talk about yingjie's sms but my contact's sms , i'm supposed to meet two contacts today to go for feilunhai's autograph session and one of them smsed me and said that she can't make it today . okei she flew me aeroplane on saturday , yes correct , this two girls pangseh me ! so today i really wanted to fly them aeroplane as well by not going cos such a thing happen , from two contact become one contact , i seriously wanted to pangseh them . both of us had mis-communication , i can never understand what she's talking about even if she ( sheryl ) don't use twit language . can you imagine how bad it is ? but i guess she somehow say that anni ( another contact ) is going her house now to take the album for me to let feilunhai sign , i'm like , oh shucks , looks like i don't have a choice now =x still i went all the way to cineleisure to look for her but for nothing cos when i reached and saw her at kbox , she told me that we require some i-don't-know-what-on-earth-is-it ticket in order to enter . ( i can never understand their fans terms )
indeed a waste of trip so we headed down to IMM together with another girl call yingxiu , also my contacts' friend . the journey was boring , well to me it was =x though we chatted and stuff like that but i still can't get over it that I AM GOING FOR SOME FEILUNHAI'S AUTOGRAPH SESSION when i don't even know who is who and can't recognise them yet and also don't even know how to sing their song lah and ... and ... so many and(s) ! again , i was reluctant to stay till feilunhai come , i'm not even in expectant to see their faces though one or two of them quite cute lah =D heehee but you know , kingdom minded and all , still have to stay =x
as all of us are direction idiots , we lost our way and had to take a cab down , yet again , WASTE MONEY ! when we reached we took a sit while queueing , i shall skipped those what we do and stuff , in the end i managed to meet another girl also here for feilunhai autograph session . she looked mature and pretty and sure don't look like those crazy fans but what a waste , she is ! never mind , she's gonna add me in msn soon =D we heard that by the time it's our turn it'd probably be ten plus so we give up qeueing and went inside the shopping mall to pass some people our album but we can't find them . mind you , it was freaking squeezy and packed with people , it stinks in a shopping centre ! =x oh i forget to mention , yingxiu pangseh us halfway haha , what's with all these people ? we just went to level two and wait for their appearance and while they are singing their three songs , many crazy and stupid fans like us are running up and down the escalators to catch a glimpse of these guys . i can never imagine myself doing that , breakthrough !
but still it was seriously a great experience for me to understand and identify with these people on how does it feel to do such a no-brainer thingy . ( to me lah , no offence ) it was really fun and funny haha ! had a great chat with anni on our way back home , guess after today i've know her more and also somehow sowed a seed in her heart bout who God really is =D i really wanna give thanks because initially i thought it'd be a failure sow today but God made a way for me =D

i am made for greater things than this
=D

2007-01-27T03:30:00.000-08:00

i'm still up at this unholy hour but no doubt i am sleeping real soon cos there's ESS tomorrow ! haha i am super duper uber happy lah , it's been a few weeks without any visitors for the group but yet now we have two newbies coming and five visitors . alright it might seem little but it's really okei because the smallest nation will become the mightiest nation ! i've always been leading such groups , i wonder why too =x haha i guess God wants to give me a bigger miracle than the rest ? haha =D i'm praying that these visitors will convert and be retain ! they'll be super new believers , responsive to You and available for You =D not my will but Yours be done and since we've did all that we can , the rest is up to You ! =D

i am really desperate for my prayers to be answered ! none will fly us aeroplane tomorrow ! haha =D for the word says , He'll will give in accordance to how much we desire =D and i am really desperate now haha =p give it to me ! and next week we shall see even more ! =D i'm sorry Mr S.A. Tan but i reckon that you gonna lose big big times ! how bout banging your head against the wall 2386418 times and fall down on your knees and concede defeat because well anyway you're gonna be the loser and the end of the day ! the victory is already ours , why fight so hard ? just admit that you're just an lousy piece of shit ! okei i'm sorry for not sparing a thought for you but still i am stating facts ! =D

thank You in advance in all that You gonna do tomorrow ! i'll be expecting to receive a great harvest and they will be super newbies . i'm so excited to see all of them receieving salvation tomorrow ! use me to speak the right words and use me to influence the visitors ! =D let not anyone miss out the goodness of You =D
ps : all the best to east chapter 6 ! whatever you all play will be music to our ears and no worries for God is your ultimate audience ! =D we'll vote for you ! do not be nervous for He is with you calming you down and giving you peace =D jia you alright !

new believers
1. weili
2. ada
visitors
1. anni SAC sec three
2. sheryl SAC sec three
3. tingting temasek sec two
4. jeanette dunman sec two
5. hwee sze dunman sec one
( next week there'll be more and these people will be here being the new believers ! =D )
thirty one visitors in total for east c , f and e =D
we're six more to breakthrough 100
east a total of two hundred for confirmation ! =D
woots ! nothing get better than this ! life's good when we serve ! =D

may Your presence fill them tomorrow and let them be overwhelm till they can't help but to receive You into their life ,
=D

2007-01-22T01:06:00.000-08:00

i'm so inspired by the few things in my life that's always dangling there but i didn't took notice of . first of all and the most important of all , i'm so inspired by angel and xiaoesther of their faith in building tampines up . well true enough and i gotta admit the fact of glory to glory , back then i wouldn't even dare imagine a unit for tampines secondary . i wonder what i lack back in the past haha . but still , tampines gonna grow with such faith filled people in it , all your prayers wouldn't become empty . trust in God's plan and keep on fulfilling your role in this kingdom =D i'm just so excited for tampines secondary , aiya just have to admit that i am old(er) now =/

anyhow right now i have three ez link card with me now and they are the secondary student/pre university one which is mine , the senior citizen one that belong to my granny and lastly a primary student one which is my nephew's one . haha not so sure if i am able to use the primary student one as i don't know if the bus driver can check . i heard from the rest that they have a mini computer thingy at the driver's seat . hope that for primary school and secondary school , it both states " student " fare . heehee =D

i'm so exicted about marching towards thirty by the end of feb ! if all of us faithfully fulfil our individual role , the kingdom of God can advance forcefully ! intensive SOW this week , but no one want me to SOW on them , sadly but still God give in accordance to how much we want ! i want it so badly ! give me ! give me ! pour down your harvest and your presence on everyone as we commit our life and trust in You , will You give us converts that are available and reponsive towards Your word ! =D ec3 jiayou , we may become smaller right now but it's okei we can become the mightiest nation ! haha ! =D i'm sure that when we give our all , we'll reap what we sow as God is gracious ! =D

till then , run in unity !
with trust and with more faith !
=D

2007-01-16T01:56:00.000-08:00

well well well , earlier on today had pioneer with my team and i guess the results were not bad , though not much fruits but at least we gathered a few workable contacts and we're keen on working on them =D had a guy contact today and i am working on him , my first time so it was rather strange to me . haha but i know God gonna do a work through me to him =D he's rather friendly so i guess it shouldn't be a problem =D tampines will surely grow big time ! with faith-filled people in it , experience can be gathered and skills is secondary , what's more important is character and that's primary ! =D sub district in tampines sec ! all the way dudes and dudettes =D

afterwhich went to rc for shar's meeting , hmm interestingly i am the earliest =x okei when they reached shar shared something really wall banging and building jumping =p alright cos the rest of the groups really grew alot and i was really wondering what are we doing last year ? initially i thought we're doing fine but after much evaluation before the meeting , i came to a obvious conclusion that we ain't did something =/ sad but still we gotta pick ourselves up from where we are and start this journey with the spark from the holy spirit . i am ever ready for more pruning and more moulding , even to the extend of ______ . yea i'm not gonna mention that =x all of us gotta have the same heartbeat in order to go through this ordeal together =D true enough , when the going gets tough , the tough gotta get going and i need to be tougher ! =D

oh by the way i am using adult fare ! so sickening lah can ! please allow irene jie jie to let me use keane keane's ez link card ! pretty please ! =p so went wam vision night after that , pastor lawrence so handsome =x oops this is not the point , the point being , pastor lawrence is the speaker , yea and we have to shine like stars in the darkness , bringing light unto the world and our we can't remain the same anymore . pastor lawrence is talking in ministry wise but me being me , being so caught up in the area of pastoral ministry linked everything to my group . the group really must grow and contain more lower sec people , thinking , let's create another history for ourselves before to take off and move on =D we gonna glorify Him and let people see Christ through us =D bless us so that we can be a blessing to the rest of the pre believers and may my group grow into greater heights and depths =D

2007-01-10T07:18:00.000-08:00

this few days has been a really wild one for me . grads appreciation was awesome cos i'm finally not dunk into the sea ! yea seems like it's good to have my stupid little red friend for that day haha , though it's ending but oh well haha =x the idea of playing sports was fine but it almost made me die on the spot , phew i really gotta train my lousy stamina . though we lost in the end to a group of netball pros but i admit defeat . i really have to give it up to the ULs for wining the winner cos they have lesser people but they are good , by having people like shar disturb the opponents and stuff . they surely win by wits and also hmm by brawns ? smart tactic huh ? haha and afterwhich we has some vandalising moments , we broke the law together together by doing illegal things and i don't feel guilty at all =x heehee then we had to play waterbomb and we attacked dennis instead , i was innocent alright , i only used two waterbombs and i missed one . i didn't attack dennis though . the kbox thingy was really fun , wah buffet ! but sadly i didn't eat till my full =/ the speech by dennis was indeed touching but his plan failed cos he did not succeed in making us cry but seriously , all of us were touched . thanks for saying that we are the best generation and you are the best leader we ever followed =D

monday was a job hunt day for yuyu huijuan and me . we practically travelled the whole singapore , getting lost and getting dead beat . so in the end we did not went for all interviews cos we were late and stuff cos most of the time we were getting lost and buying food and drinks . we had three jobs and today went for two training class . hmm i'm still deciding if i should get the orchard tower job , it's rather flexible but i somehow think that the people there are quite scary =x twenty of us went to the housing agency surveyor job and we're all getting that job =D so cool to be working with almost all the olevel grads =D thank God with blessing us with the job and also i found fifteen bucks on the floor today ! count me lucky or whatever , because there were people queueing up but none of them saw the fifteen bucks that was on the floor . i was waiting for those customers infront to start searching panicky for their lost cash but none of them did so , so i assume that this is God's plan for me =D haha thank You God !

much happened but still , wanna give thanks cos i know that this is just the beginning of the testings i gonna face =D i'm prepared so just bring it on and i'll overcome and challenges that come my way . take my hand and lead me =D i am determined to make all these happen =D
You know what i'm talking about so yea haha .

fulfilling the great commission
=D

2007-01-06T00:12:00.000-08:00

arghhhhhh seriously i really need a job ! i want to go for missions one okei ! i'm like so dead can , up till now haven't even get a job while the rest of the people are enjoying luxury with the money they earned =x who has jobs recommendation to offer , reasonable pays and flexible hours ( i don't mind working in the wee hours ) everything now is so stupid and dumb can ! i really need a job lah !

oh well depend on Him , have to always remind myself about this . pretty please make a way out alright ? =D oh yea i almost forget , i'm so happy that now my computer is alive and kicking . staring at this desktop screen almost make me feel as if i am staring at a plasma fifty inch television cause previously i was always staring at the small screen laptop . now my eyes feels so much better and it totally rock can , when i can get back my stuff and use my mp3 =D heehee

i guess this is the first post of the year but there's no festive mood to me , everything seems so normal but the best thing is that i do not have to return to school . i find that i am a sadist that takes delight in people's suffering in going back to school , i feel good whenever i see them in school uniforms while i am in casual clothing =D haha oh i wanted to be like the rest to post about their new year resolution , what they saw , met and everything they did first on new year or a thanksgiving list but i don't want to bore you all out with my lenghty posts haha . hmm maybe i can be less racist so my sheep florence won't suffer =D haha nah i'm joking xD

ex e6 totally rock okei ! went chalet with them , i bbq for the first ever time in my life and there's still blood in my chicken wing . bleedy chicken wing ! haha ! i can reall bbq mashmellow , i seriously rock at that lah ! =D it's so tender and sweet , crispy on the outside and melts in the inside =D sadly i couldn't even catch a glimpse of sunrise , not because i am lazy or lousy that i fell asleep but because it was raining and the clouds hid away the joy =x nevermind , this bunch of people are crazy and irritating =D love them lah =D

last but not least , i still NEED a job lah ! arghhhhh it's driving me nuts ! haha =D

breaking down the walls of jericho with the anthem of faith
=D

2006-12-30T16:41:00.000-08:00

okei i am unhappy because i just posted a whole load crap with bullshit and this irritating piece of metal with wires and filled with technology is going strongly against me . STUPID ! aiya so as known i am a person that is a com nut and i can't handle electronics for nuts so in fact i have no one else to blame so i can just swallow this grievance against electronics down me . so basically i blogged about the genting vacation with the other three spastic yet impactful people in my life and bout the goodness in this trip , the christmas services and east christmas party and a particular visitor that i brought that is so responsive ! =D also on this year and my thoughts on next year but i ain't gonna do it now cos i have a bad feeling that something bad is gonna happen if i blogged long entry . God knows , i know and that's enough !

THANKS FOR BRINGING ME THROUGH THIS YEAR AND FOR THOSE MEMORABLE MEMORIES , LET ME NOT FORGET BECAUSE I AM SOMEONE WHO IS MUDDLEHEAD AND WITH LOUSY MEMORY FOR SOME CIRCUMSTANCES . GIVE ME WISDOM =D

looking back , thanking God
looking ahead , keeping faith
=D

2006-12-23T04:37:00.000-08:00

WOOTS ! ec3 break thirty five and we hit thirty eight ! thank You though we had eight guys visitor but i believe that as our people really hunger for more and have compassion on all these lost souls , You'll pour out more that we couldn't contain . as we outreach and continue to invite and persuade our friends to come , come and do Your work and do all that we cannot do . we'll do all human possible with our hundred percent while You do Your hundred percent . when we exercise faith and all else we're in fact leaving You with no choice but to bless us ! haha so bless this group greatly ! =D

i'm so eager and excited , can't wait for christmas service Being 00:00 at kallang theatre because we gonna transform that place to a super lively and happening place while many lives are touched and transformed ! salvation comes so easily and freely to all people who take the step of faith and open up their lives =D let's invite Him into your life to fill the void that nothing can satisfy =D i really see all these coming to past in a awesome and mind blowing manner ! haha

it's really late now and i only completed eight cards and i really wrote damn slow . one card i need bout fifteen to twenty minutes because i do not want to write it in a hasty manner and without putting in my heart to write . really hope that these cards will at least play it's significant role and meet it's objective of encouraging the reader / owner of the card =D though my handwriting is hideous and all but i guess no one will mind haha . i am seriously broke till i can't afford any christmas gifts , please pardon me because it is not that i do not want to spend money but i can't even spend =x so right now i am even more determine to find a job and work and earn money for the sake of myself and others , so many stuff need cash like mission trip , genting vacation and more =D gotta get my butts working and toiling and slogging hard away =x

felt so accomplished and fruitful these few days because though i did not really spend my time really wisely ( i always fail in achieving this ) but it was still rather fruitful . managed to shepherd two of my sheeps though i wanted to shepherd three . had mcg , outreached and sow on a few people . cool ! finally i filed and categorized my teachings after so long haha . wrote a few christmas cards and alot more haha . ta-daa feel so good =D

i don't want it to rain in genting , having alot of mist or bad weather ! i wanna have fun with the three other silly people and rock the place there as if i own it ! =D i'm getting really excited bout the trip now too ! really love these three rockers to bits ! haha =D

so many craps to say but i guess i shouldn't and i ought to be sleeping =x

have Your way
=D

2006-12-20T02:48:00.000-08:00

disciples in the aspect of education , thanks joyce ! we're geeks !
we believe !
breaking the walls of jericho !
thanks sheep ! love all of you ! =D
team spirit ! unity in cheerleading ! thanks , you're a great bunch of people ! =D
mismatch ! i looked the most normal ! =D
breakthrough 100 !
two hundred ! it shall be done !
we got the east shark spirit ! =D

woots ! great people ! the Only Great ! the only great me as well ! haha =D
jiayou all the way for christmas
we are in the world but not of the world as to influence the world !
i believe in breaking the walls of jericho !
=D

walking in You path
=D

2006-12-18T09:26:00.001-08:00

camp has ended ! woots ! pastor david chen rocks ! he's damn hot ! xD

the camp this time round was annointed and inspirational , leading us to be very focus and clear in all our applications . all our response was very practical in wanting to bring in at least one for the kingdom . the one bring one strategy was one that is obvious in helping us to breakthrough 1000 , however this all includes many rising up to shepherds , coreteam , careleaders , unit leaders and so on . not only does it includes the physical aspect of outreaching ( evangelise , sowing , sharing christ and stuff ) , it also includes our spirituality in being eager and compassionate on the lost souls , and also emotionally we have gotta balance our life in having proper rest so that when we're faced with rejections and trails of discouragement , we may stand firm ! =D

so far , camp has ended for quite some time and we have came back from a few round of battle between the kingdom of darkness and light . apparently through our desperation and faith , we have won a few fights and till then fighting even harder as we gets drained each time . after every round of battle , we'll be back to take a soul rest with our king of kings . getting to the retention stage is definitely tougher than all else because that's the period where they are the most vulnerable and doubtful . it's never about just whacking because if we ever whack it wrongly , we're in for deep shit . the first part of christmas in the city is over and many crossed the line of faith within this mere few days , when we heard that shar's district hit breakthrough 100 , we're overwhelmed with joy =D never were we so happy when o level ended , we merely screamed our lungs off and follow what the rest did by enjoying ourselves though not to the very full . we gotta carry on , not maintaining but advancing this kingdom and claiming back the victory that is ours . we won't be hurt for free and saying this makes me think of my dear sister serene , jiayou alright , it may be tough but i've seen you grow and come thus far . let's continue to keep faith ! =D to everyone that grow in camp : i salute you cos you've done a great job , and surely He honours you much more than i do =D

okei enough of being naggy and all , just gotta jiayou because of all the one reason ! a job well done everyone ! =D the rest of the battles will be more exciting and tedious but through it there'll be joy and in fact we won't find it hard or painful anymore . altogther thirty five , altogether breaking 100 , altogether breakthrough 1000 ! and despite it all , we're all in this together ! =D

i will boast in the one who's worthy !
=D

2006-12-18T09:26:00.000-08:00

2006-12-03T16:18:00.000-08:00

thoughts are running and even sprinting through my mind now , how i wish the it doesn't go too wild . everyone isn't like how we used to be , and it's not better but much worst . i know it full too well that God intervened , God helped cause God is mighty to save and with us through it all . however there are still uncertainties in people live's that refuses to believe and trust , much even respond . accumulated events that had not been resolved resulted in people to disobey to almost every calling of God and this caused the events to pile up and collapsed some weeks ago . all tried to clear spiritual ear wax to hear the every word that God speaks but to no avail , they said that they are insensitive or sometimes even to the extend that God don't care anymore . however we all knows in our human knowledge that God will never leave nor forsake , therefore we hold on because we know we need too . God speaks through people to tell us to persist on in faith , in prayer , in hope , in trust and in love . God says not to give up because He has never give up on us before . God says He wanna train us , He knows we can overcome , He loves us so much that He doesn't want to spoil us . His unconditional love reults in sometimes we felt so painful but the fact stands that God provides spiritual healing . God gives us soul rest .

i pray that all these would end before the breakthrough camp , we wanna get the most outta of this camp and not let anything hinder us . for those who had given up and not wanting to do anything , God do something because i know with human's strenght we cannot do anything . come and do whatever we can't and we shall persist on with faith and prayer intensively . may everyone be greatly blessed and turn out much much stronger than before and no one will miss out . give us whatever extra dosage of faith , courage and whatever we need to go through this storm that seem never ending . we need miracle and You more than anything else in this world , keeping faith on everyone's behalf . In Your Mighty Name , AMEN ! =D

i really believe
i'm really desperate
i want it so badly till it hurts so badly

cos we are more than just friends
more than just sisters
more than any vocabularly word could describe

win the youth today , win the world tomorrow =D

2006-11-29T01:33:00.000-08:00

i've seen many blogs and many of them have quizzes on it so i would like to try out as well =D i know it's dumb , but who cares =D heehee .

Start Time: 5.41pm
2. Name: denise
3. Nickname: pretty , attractive , gorgeous and adorable girl . haha ! i really have some weird ones like turkey and more...
4. If u were a skittle what color would you be?: what's a skittle ? =x
5. Chinese Zodiac: horse
6. Zodiac: taurus
7. Hair color: i just dyed it but it's not obvious , copper red =x
8. Eye color: brown and hey i'm watching you ! =D
9.Height: 156m ! ( short is cute =D )
10. Favorite Color: MAROON ( that's my favourite but i like alot more colours too =D )
11. glasses?: sadly yes
12. Braces?: haha nope i don't need it
13. Piercing/tattoos?: four piercings
15. Area code: ehh huh ? =x
******HAVE YOU EVER******
17. Cut your own hair?: yea i ruined it badly =x
18. Did you do something in the past month that you regret?: yup , stupid why did you remind me haha .
20. Kissed someone who isn't ur g/f or b/f?: of course my parents and erm some for fun =x
21. Skipped school?: haha like always but you know... =D
22. Bungee jumped?: i really wish to try =D
23. Had sex outside?: NO
24. Dumped someone?: i wish to dump someone into the litter bin , it'll be fun i guess =D
25. Been arrested?: no lah haha
26. TP'd someone's house?: huh ?
27. Won something?: i guess so , not for being crappy and nonsensical =D
30. Been rejected?: yea many times ( not bgr kinds hor haha ! =D )
31. Been to a funeral?: yupyup aiya if only they were believers
32. Used a lighter?: haha yupyup i didn't manage to burn down any infrastructures =x
33. Been on stage?: yuppy and i guess i looked awful =x
*****FAVORITE*****
34. Season: spring , the weather is just nice
35. Food: CHOCOLATE ! =D
36. Icream flavor: CHOCOLATE ! ( i know it's boring but... haha =D )
37. School subject(s): haha i'm out of school for now FOR GOOD ! =D
38. Person?: people in my life ( what a norm thing to say =x )
41. Book(s): christian literature and more ( i read okei ! =D )
42. Movie(s): i wouldn't spend money and invest time on a movie that i don't like
43. Song?: anything but not metals and operas
44. Park?: PARKway parade =D heehee
45. State: erm a place where there's shopping paradise =D
46. Place: not any ulu place , i don't have sense of direction
47. Sport to watch : soccer , gymnastic , atheletics , swimming and more but i don't like to play sports =x
49. Bands/musicians: anyone that can play music will do =D
50. Letter(s): love letters ? haha =x
51. Restaurant: hmm alot ! if only God bless me with finance haha =D
52.Cartoon Character(s): ELMO ! SUPERMAN ! SPONGEBOB SQUAREPANTS ! BOB THE BUILDER =D they rock ! =D
53. TV Station(s): any that's entertaining
54. Name for a son: ______ xiang ri kui ( haven't thought of yet =x )
55. Name for a daughter: vanessa _____ ______ ______ ( i am not so futuristic afterall =x )
******DO YOU PREFER******
56. Chocolate or Vanilla?: chocolate =D
58. Long relationships or one night stands ? :long relationship ( so there's more standing =x oops haha )
59. Dogs or cats?: dogs(?) both of it ran after me before , i adore dogs from afar , cats not at all
60. Scary movies or comedies?: comedies , woulsn't it be better to pay to laugh than to scare yourselve ? =D
61. Short hair or long: for me i only ask for better quality hair =D
62. Croutons or bacon bits?: bacon bits.... i'm yearning for it now =D
63. Kissing or hugging: i guess it depends on who the person is =D ( my physical touch dropped )
****FIRST THINGS THAT COME TO MIND****
64. Mexicans: guys wearing skirt haha =p
65. School: it sucks life -.-"
66.Grass: erm grass ? green ? scenery ? =x huh ?
67. Cow: xiao moo moo rocks ! ben and jerry's ice cream ! ! ! =D
68. Canada: a vacation =D heehee
69. Mouse: eee i'll think of it being dirty =x
70. Hands: my own hands ? erm... haha =x
******THE PAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU******
71. Watched a movie?: ehh no leh , can i have a treat ? =D
72. Talked on the phone?: yupyup
73. Cried?: haha yea no ! as you know , i'm emo =x
74. Threw up?: nope.. it's been long since i last did that .
75. Drank a glass of water?: i drank it from bottles haha
76. Done Drugs?: nope.. not even medicine =D
77. Read a book or magazine?: yea haha as i've said, i do reading alright =D
78. Watched TV?: yupyup it's supposed to enteratined but i'm not -_-"
79. Looked in the mirror?: haha yea cos i who don't like to look good ? =x
80. Taken a shower?: yup so refreshing =D
81. Taken a picture?: haha yupyup at orchard and so many people is staring at me
82. Listened to music?: yea , life without music is dead =x
83. Kissed someone?: my parents =D
85. Told someone you liked them: lo and behold.... my parents again ! =D

if you are observant enough , you'll realized that many questions is not there . when i copy and paste it , it's already like this =x

oh well , it's been a long time since i last post and entry . i went for my cousin's church wedding , tomorrow i'll be going to his wedding dinner . prom night is over and i think i look freaking weird in the pictures =x ( pre prom and post prom activities is nice =D ) crash course is in the midst of all these things now =D went for some job interviews , i dread working but i have no other alternatives . OHANA camp , CL camp and BREAKTHROUGH camp is coming . i had alot of overnights and going to have alot more =D

seriously all of a sudden i feel like having more blessings , God open my spiritual eyes .
plasm 119:18 open my eyes Lord so that i may see wonderful things in Your law
speak to me , i long for more of You .

nothing compares
=D

2006-11-22T00:16:00.000-08:00

i have some post exam syndrome , i think it's really weird =x or rather all of us are weird because all of us are actually sharing the same kind of syndrome , this is so strange =x

1) everytime i'll think of what to do next and the first thing that came to my mind is to study for the next day's paper , apparantly the next day i don't have any paper =x
2) whenever someone tries to " play " ( trick ) us and say " STUDY ! " we'll get paranoid =x
3) when we want to entertain ourselves with certain entertainments , we'll think that we need to get our priorities right by studying first
4) sitting before our study desk/table will cause us to automatically take out certain subject and attempt to do them
... and there are some that i forget already haha =D

well i went for dance today , yeah ! i can go already but i wanna apologize cos i was really really tired , haven't got a proper rest since my o level . i forsaked my beauty sleep for some lame stuff that i've forgot -.-" sorry for not participating and volunteering and giving suggestions entusiastically =x but i really enjoy today's dance , jiali , your wish will come true... there'll be committed people in this group and people with visions for dance =D thanks for playing a part in my life , dancers =D HAPPY BIRTHDAY IN ADVANCED ! =D heehee

promises
won't let go of me ,
=D

2006-11-20T23:30:00.000-08:00

YEAH ! O LEVEL IS OVER ! ! THIS ROCK LIKE ROCKING CHAIR ! ! MUAKAKA ! LEELEELAALAALOOLOO ! ! WOOTS ! ! ! ! !

well well well i'm really very excited , though this major national exam determines the next phase of my life which i am not very confident in but i'm gonna enjoy my holiday cos i really did my very very best throughout this exam ! haha this is awesome . haha !

alrighty despite it , i'm really very unhappy that sup is gone , i meant she went back to thai , although i know she's gonna return during the hols and during results day to take her eight points but it's really very different . last time when we send her off , the feeling is really different . most of us cried and because sup is someone that is really bright , cheerful , kind , simply a GOOD ( with capital letters , in bold , huge fonts and striking red ) person . i really miss her presence and wanna thank her for all those sincere acts that she did to cheer the group up . i really regret it as throughout the four years of our life , i dare say i don't know her well =x i really appreciate and treasure this friendship that we have . ( not obligated to write but i mean it ! =D ) i really value sup , i want her back . just thinking of the back view of her leaving make me feel so upset . SUP , YOU ROCK MY SOCKS AND I REALLY MISS AND LOVE YOU LAH ! haha COME BACK SOON ! ( though i'm really reluctant to take my results but i know i can see you only there and then =x ) and jia you in your admission to university ! you confirm can do it !

in fact the greatest regret that i have is that i didn't help sup to receive Jesus into her life , and this is one issue that make me so upset . i am her friend but yet i just see her leaving and all . GOD I REALLY PRAY THAT A BELIEVER IN THAILAND WILL HELP HER KNOW YOU ! GOD PLEASE MOVE COS I KNOW YOU REIGN THROUGOUT THE UNIVERSE AND GOD REMAINS THE SAME EVERYWHERE AND ANYTIME ! =D

prom night is just a few days away and i haven't had my hair done yet and stupidly i cut my nails away and i can neither do manicure nor padicure . hmm never mind i'll just leave them alone . haha i'm excited for the prom night cos i don't know how it gonna be like . i really want it to be a night of fragments of fun and memorable moments ! heehee =p

oh cool ! celebration caregroup was fun though it was rather random and chapalan haha but it was still great . together we'll grow much more into greater heights and all ! all my fasting goals and camp goals and all objectives that i set , it shall come to past ! ( You know what are them God haha ) GOD SEE MY HEARTBEAT , SEE MY DESIRE OR RATHER DESPERACY ! THIS GONNA BE DONE ! heehee !

all in all
thanksgiving
=D

2006-11-15T09:23:00.000-08:00

FIVE MORE DAYS TO THE OFFICIAL END OF O LEVEL .
ONE MORE DAY TO THE SELF PROCLAIM END OF EXAMINATION !

all the celebrations are calling my name louder and louder , just can't wait for it to end . yeah i'm going on a holiday ! this holiday will be filled with much fulfillments . i can't list them down here cos there's too much . muakaka =p

never mind bout the papers ( i emphasize on the "s" ) that i screwed , i've done my really best and i'll never know how God works . but i do know He work for the good for those who love Him . i am safe =D sometimes it's just that i didn't study wisely , but that doesn't mean i'm dumb . but who cares , if someone really wanna do something , they of course can achieve it by all means . i'm just thinking i am saying all those " no one is stupid and stuff " quotes to make myself feel better . but it's better off than those " i-gonna-flunk-badly " quotes -.-"

soon and VERY soon , GOODbye to o level . ( it's for a very GOOD reason , you see ) xD

God , gimme the brain capacity to memorize and understand all that i need to now . In Your name , Amen !

never gonna live life less than all You want for me
giving all my heart to my God and i'll worship You
=D

2006-11-10T07:07:00.000-08:00

i'm so dead , not .
my elementary mathematics paper two was a total bullshit .
outrageous pathetic .
ridiculous !

i easily made myself rise to the top of being the most idiotic , stupid , dumb and moronic person in the world .
i screwed it again
damn the bleedy paper .
to hell with that ass paper
( okei i realised actually very long ago i have no virtue speaking =x )

what rotten luck i've got !
i have no affinity with exams i guess =x

but oh well , it all lies in whether i trust God .
i suppose i should .
oh snap that out , I SHOULD !
who else can i lean on then ?
" God i rely on You to bring me through this ordeal of studies stress , this is the first time i have stress for exams and it's simply unbearable ! i need You much more than anything else . bless me in my results as i live to honour Your name and show my parents that You're authentically genuinely real . in Jesus's name i pray , to God be the glory , forever and ever , AMEN ! "

i love superman ! he's my first superhero and shall be the last =D
bob the builder is cute .
elmo is red .
spongebob squarepants is funny .
popeye is strong .
cartoon rocks my life . everybody needs cartoon . it's entertaining xD

G3 - you can never be replace =D
thanks for all the support you gave ! the faith and hope we hold on together . indeed we turn out stronger . God never fails ! no matter where we are heading , i'll never forget that you girls play such an important role in my life , building up my character , encouraging me , all the little things that you did leaves a great impact in my heart . we shall grow more , influencing the rest , let's shine for God together =D kaysee , florence , shuhfen , qinning , weiting , geckting , serene and eileen ( not in any particular order ) i love all of you , truly ! =D

i need to work cos i'm always spending =x

2006-11-09T01:34:00.000-08:00

exams are here and all the stuff . boo for this . fancy me taking my national exams now while the rest are slacking their butts off . well this is life , their turn will be here soon =D

woots counting down to eleven more days to the end of o' level . this is the best thing that can ever happen to me right now . sometimes i really pray that God will take me home during the midst of this period . at least my killer paper is next week and God has a few more days to take me home . haha but at the same time , i have so many things things i have yet done . well i gotta get this over and done with it =x yes sadly .

much had happened , i mean of cos i went through so many days in my life , if nothing happen it'd be weird cos at least i shit , urine , eat , bathe , sleep , breathe , blink eyes and all the stuff . so something happen as well right ? haha so hmm i've went through it painfully and now i can be eased , at least there's a turn in the situation . i'm always reminded to give thanks in all circumstance , bless His name , honour Him , praise Him , change myself instead of the situation and all . this has been going on for weeks and i can say i've been doing this all along . sometimes though i did complaint but i always managed to pull myself up and settle everything with God before i go for any appointments . still nothing was done and everything got worst , well and now the situation was amended and everyone's got back . i think there's a very big problem lying here , and the whole key thing is really testing , i endured , i survived but uglily . now i have overcome it , i am stronger than yesterday . haha i'm praying for God to show me the whole full view of this... though it doesn't just end here , there are alot more episode to it . if you don't get me , forget it cos you don't have to anyway =D

i screwed my papers up big big time . i dug my own grave and maybe i might even get an elephant grade ? but still i know the verdict is still in God's hand and i can't do anything bout it . i'm praying hard that God's favour and blessing will be upon me , the day i take my results i can see a huge fat miracle . and that's the day i crawl outta of my grave . i'm pyscho-ing myself i won't flunk my paper and get a fat zero... a flat one ? nope NO FLUNKING !
okei cos i didn't elaborate all four points of my report writing when i am supposed to ( or not ) , i just did on my chosen idea and my teacher say that this will get me a straight fail . that's very encouraging of my friends to say this to me , i though i need consolation ? haha but thank God for those who consoled me . i didn't cry lah . haha i was just ... stoning . GOD HELP ME ! I CAN'T FAIL ENGLISH ! I OUGHT TO SCORE WELL IN THIS LANGUAGE PAPER ! that's why i say i need miracle . and also my combined science paper , what on earth was going on with those papers . it was freaking easy and that's the whole point , i can't attempt it . well perhaps some of them who took the paper and was laughing their heads off cos it was hell easy . but i went to study those tougher parts , and confident that all those will come out and NOPE ! fancy it being easy and i can't do it . encourage me or laugh at me , your choice =x what a trick to play on me , education sure has got something against me that i wasn't aware but i can daringly tell education that i hate it . at least humanes have humanity and it wasn't tough and wasn't TOO EASY ! but here's the scary part , there'll be moderation =x oh well , whatever that i said may not be what the outcome gonna be . that's why the fact stand that i need God's favour , God's blessing , God's miracle ON ME ! i welcome YOU ! haha feel free to sit in whenever you want =D

alrighty i gotta get my butts moving and slog or rather mug harder for my killer papers . POA ! AMATH ! hmm yea i really did mug , at least i mugged . last time i didn't even know what papers i'll be taking at that's during prelim . hoho . i really studied and after studying geo i can say that Jesus is coming back real soon . global warming and stuff , i can't be kidding you .

WISDOM , I WELCOME YOU !
=D

2006-10-30T07:46:00.000-08:00

GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT GREAT ! okei i'm lazy to continue to write my GREAT . it's GREAT , really GREAT ! AWESOME =D thank you all out there for being a faithhful support to the group , if it weren't for you girls , i don't think i can hang on till today . thanks for always supporting me when i am down ! i believe that solitude benifit you girls greatly , continue to have a spiritual hunger for God ! =D ( okei i was lag , post this so late =p )

talking about hunger , i really do have alot of cravings for physical hunger ! i want to eat the century square B1's chicken ? who is kind enough to buy for me ? i want it so much ! while taking my chinese paper two today , i was so hungry and the only thing that came to my mind was that chicken , i could almost smell the aroma right before me . the crispiness of the chicken was like right in my mouth and i think i was even munching it sub consciously ( oh yea i was real tired too haha =p ) I AM DESPERATE FOR CHICKEN !

don't ask me about my chimese paper , becuase the only reply i could gave to you guys is i don't know , cuase i can't differentiate a difficult or easy chinese paper , all i know was i was only doing and imagining my CHICKEN =x i pray that on the rest of my paper , i won't have all these stupid cravings in the midst of the exams . it's totally freaking distracting . boo =p I AM DESPERATE FOR CHICKEN !

DAMN IT ! that stupid art is so time consuming ! i wanna study for the rest of the paper but i couldn't do it because i have yet finish my art . this is so dumb , last time i wouldn't give a chicken feather about revising for other subjects but now when i want to do it but it's against my will . STUPID STUPID ! DAMN STUPID !

i wanna get married =x
i wanna crash your wedding
i wanna see you divorce
i am sadist
i wanna earn my first million at the age of twenty ? =x
i know with God , i can ! it's just that it may not be God's plan =x

I AM DESPERATE FOR CHICKEN !
I WANNA DRINK THAT " GOD KNOWS WHAT BRAND " MILK
I WANT MY MP3 TO COME SOON !
I AM SO SICK OF MY BAGS
I WANNA TALK TO ELMO !
I LOVE XIAOMOOMOO AND DAXIANG =D
I WANNA SHOP TILL I DROP !
I WANT THIS TWENTY DAYS TO END LIKE A BLINKING OF AN EYE !
I WANT TO EAT BEANCURD !
I REALLY REALLY REALLY WANT TO SHINE FOR HIM ! =D
I WANT.................................................................................................... and the list goes on and on and on and on...........................................................................................
but.............................
I NEED HIM . YES THATS A NEED ! A CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT !

you spoke , i NEED to obey =D

2006-10-22T09:43:00.000-07:00

gosh that was seriously a life and death experience for me . it concerns my life mind you ! haha okei fine that is i saw a flying cockroach , and you think that's all . NOPE ! the stuuuuupid eeedioctic freeeeeaking cockroach is flying towards me ! eww that's my worst encounter with pest ! i really mean pest ! okei fine i think the worst was a non flying cockraoch who was obviously crawling into my sandals . that was way back when i was still wearing sandals ( last time i felt secure wearing them and who knows , that pest can actually enter ! ) eee ! puke !

oh yea flying cockroach found in rocher soya bean , it was my first time there and i hope the last time too . haha quite a number of us were there yesterday people like joyce lee and her peeps , the east d cheung cheng guys , g2 , nigel , chuanjie , jeslin , yuyu , meng and me . we're happily eating and drinking our soyabean and chatting our hearts out when suddenly someone yelled " COCKROACH ! " and we all thought that dumb cockroach is crawling somewhere , then tryphoza screamed " A FLYING COCKROACH !!!!! " then lo and behold , everyone turned and apparantly when the girls saw a flying cockroach flying towards our direction we'll start to scream and run away ! i really mean scream okei ! haha yesterday's encounter was terrible . after that commotion of screaming , all of us started to packed our belongings and leave that dreadful place . i have no idea what happen to that cockroach , the second i saw that stuuuuupid black and brown thing i immediately scream and run leaving my valuables ( handphone ) behind at the table . that's how scared i am ! =x haha =p

finally i am convinced that a flying cockroach is indeed scarier than a lizard . but still the thought of a lizard gives me goosebumps . imagine with me , their skin colour , texture and eeks i can't carry on ! haha and if they can fly , i cannot imagine how miserable my life would be always seeing them around in interchange . phew... thank God that He created lizard that can only crawl . heehee =p

that was a long night for some of us that went over to yuyu's house to overnight , rather fun and quite an experience . study , slack , pray and stuffs(sssss) . hmm we went down in the middle of the night to buy maggi mee and saw a few teenage juveniles . they are like teasing us but who cares , we have God's backing . we also saw policemen that we are so bothered about them but they weren't even bothered bout us . haha we are citizens that ain't law breaking , exept going out after eleven at our age . haha =D and the night carry on... and soon the day... and now the night again . haha =D

edited * oh yea i forget to mention that it was simply unbearable wearing a boxers lookalike walking around you know ! i saw a few of my friends and jo was so surprised that i was ACTING NORMALLY when i see them . okei it was so embarassing and if you guys know me well , i wouldn't be acting normally , i'd be screaming and say you recognised that wrong person . i'm not bimbotic but everyone wants to look presentable or rather look good right ! whats wrong with spending time looking into the mirror and showing more concern to your appearance ? haha so i guess i am perfectly fine . LiLi Ng actually recognised me while i was walking back home and she shouted my name from her window , so funny . and she told me that she just know it was me though she didn't see clearly , AHH doesn't that sound as if that i was always wearing so ugly-ly . i wore a large tee-shirt , a boxers lookalike shorts , a op tote bag and a ladies' slipper from charles and keith . what a combi ! haha . okei fine it's over ! never will such thing happen again ! =D

MUG , not because i need to , but because i want to .
MUG , for His sake and again His to be done !

2006-10-19T09:52:00.000-07:00

oh well i've been wanting to post the world's most boring post ever ever since like God knows when ago . but due to my laziness and being forgetful , i kept on not posting . but it's okei , i'll get to do it today . haha anyway i've been treating my blog as trash , it's existence is for me to crap and be lame and say nonsense stuff . but certain stuff are seriously true , please be smart enough to know how to differentiate . i know my friends are smart ! haha =D

okei so fun... so here it goes..! xD

( argh i can't myself for doing such a lame thing , i hate seeing such stuff at people's blog . it makes me feel like sleeping and yet i wanna play it now... after reading , you may sleep =D )

alrighty... yesterday i was awaken by my mum and the reason she asked me to wake up was really funny . she says that she wants me to get use to the time of waking up early because the next day i'm having practical . i thought .. what a good reason but i continued to sleep as i was really lacking sleep . and again i was awaken by her a few times , my mum wanna see her daughter walking or rather jumping around like a living dead zombie beacuse i am a chinese . ( not vampire but zombie ) but still i woke up at eleven plus feeling really tired , i don't know why , maybe i am just strange .
i tossed and turned around in my bed for around five times before i was willing to leave my bed that's so reluctant to allow me to leave . then i took around ten steps to the bathroom to prepare myself . i relieved myself , washed up and brush teeth but ta-daa ! i am still sleepy ! haha i guess that perhaps it is just me being plain lazy ! after which i ate breakfast and stuff and did my geography agriculture notes on market gardening . and boo i spent around the whole day on that stupid topic . it better come out for o'level else i am gonna be mad . haha no lah , i blame it on myself for not doing it whole heartedly but do other stuff at the same time . haha .
( ehh no... this whole chunk refers to the day before . ehh no wait... haha nvm i am confused about what i did , but who cares... i am playing here haha =x)
yea correct that's the day before but yesterday i met LiLi Ng and she taught me amath , haha F.I.N.A.L.L.Y i can prove trigo question . i remembered being able to prove trigo and solve trigo at the not tender age of sec three but yet i can't do it when i am in sec four . but woo hoo i manage to already . studied practicals with yuyu jol and shuhfen through phone and was really confident that i am able to handle all sort of question that is thrown at me but little did i expect myself to do so much mistake . alright never mind about that , don't wanna talk about it . i know God's grace is sufficient for me to do well for my written paper xD
went geckting's house to study but wasn't really effective as we had alot of distraction and not being abnle to get started as most of us are not in the study mood . but hello , can you imagine a house with five sets of tv at a living room with almost all with scv , massage equipments and magazines around ( i ain't listing everything down ya'll know ) this is terrible , we can't really flee from temptation because everywhere there's something to tempt you like tv(s) and etc !!! ! !!

alrighty i am getting sick of posts like this ... i am in fact digging my own grave because entries like this bore me to death . i am not going to dig this grave on further by saying that therefore i end my day like this and i hope that tomorrow will be a better day . thank God i did not play worst by making it boring-er . i am capable of doing that , haha but still this don't apply that i am a boring person . i am not a bore ! i am... you know it haha =p

i am still praying for you
God gives me rest , soul rest .

without faith , it is impossible to please God =D

twelve more days to o'level art ( first nov )

2006-10-13T10:48:00.000-07:00

wouldn't it be nice if this world is filled with if only(s) ? then everyone can do whatever they want . but then again , it sounds wrong and it cannot be done . well but what if ? haha okei enough of my nonsense thoughts .

i'm just wondering why people choose to be indulge in things that they know they shouldn't and yet through the indulge chose to give EXCUSES that they couldn't make it for any appointments . get what i'm saying ? haha . nvm it's alright , it's food for thoughs or rather my FOOT for thoughts .

anyone with the simplest mind on earth will be aware of the situation that's happening around us now or even in your own life ( no doubt ) . never mind bout that cos we know that it's God's plan and we ought to hang on firm to His words that will never fail . i wouldn't allow anything to affect and hinder my relationship with God , no one worth more than God and thus it's not worth if i get affected by anyone . the point here i'm making ain't saying that any particular out there is ain't worthy but as compared to God , that's the fact . then again , i still love you as much as i always do . cos i love God and therefore people . that's not an irony but this shows how wise God is . duh !

apparantly , judging from my attendance , attitude , attributes and stuff has pleasantly show you how much i regard school as . ever since the end of prelims i have not been attending school regularly and i mean it . i've been taking leave ( pontang = playing truant ) these days for a good reason . this meant life and death issue you know , going school means i'll die . blah . okei crap... well i had a nice chat with jo overnight on the phone yesterday which leave me not being able to sleep the whole night and we met for breakfast and went on seperate ways to school . i didn't sleep for over thirty plus hours and when i sleep i really wasn't aware that i was . hmm these few days has been a great adventurous journey , not literally physically but spiritually . was that cool or not cool ?

all that happen leave me to think... i ought to be sanguine back again . i ought to this and that , that and this . and even to the extent of if only(s) , don't get my post ? it's alright ! =D i'm sure and confident that God gets me and will act according to what i pray . God's moving , i'm maturing . thanks for being my God , father , best friend , counsellor , strenght , guidance , help and the list REALLY goes on ...

( i'm screaming and God hears it , i'm crying and God keeps it , i'm caught up and God embraces me warmly ) =D

question and answers ...
1. do you mind if i mind ? _____________________ . ( never mind if you don't get me )
2. if given a word to encourage someone , what would it be ? ________ .
3. i aspire to be _______ ? i'm a ________ wannabe .

reclaimers notes
there is no form of stumble-ness ( if there is such a word ) in this entry cos it is genuinely that i didn't rephrase my sentence structuring and thus it may seem as if you all didn't undertsand what i mean . haha so it's okei and don't doubt the standard of my english ( i'm aiming an A2 dear , and please pray for me ) okei in fact my posts are bullshit , crappy and all nonsense times 2189558 times .

don't be afraid to shake that ass and misbehave .
xD

2006-10-11T11:13:00.000-07:00

although how much i do not understand , i know that God wouldn't allow me to understand until and unless this whole ordeal is over . how long will it takes ? i wouldn't know as well until i have mature from it . i can understand fully that God wants to grow me but i just don't know what is it . despite the fact i want this whole thing to end as soon as possible or even sometimes immediately , i know that this is God's plan for me to handle this thing and to depend fully on Him . perhaps it's really time , so God change my heart and to always depend on You and not on my own lousy strenght . through it all , i wanna give thanks because all things happen for a reason though it is really tiring and many a times i really wanna give up but i know i can still tap on His strenght . i don't want the whole group's morale to drop , i don't want this group to fall . in all things , God works for the good for those who love Him , if our life are filled with problems , it means a good sign . God thanks for using me , thanks for seeing my capability despite of my weaknessES ( haha must emphazise i have alot xD ) God give me ample strenght to move on as i bring along the rest into greater heights ! with You , all of us can ! intervene in it , cause i know when You bring us into this , You'll us out of it ! pour Your favour upon us as we live up our hearts to You =D

haha but seriously , i really need that extra dosage of God's power =D to overcome this whole ordeal . and extra dosage of wisdom to chiong and mug for the last lap of my o level . well but i really wanna give thanks to God for sending my teacher to tell me that i am capable in getting at least an A2 for my english , so if it's the most i can get distinctions ? haha alright , be consistent in my work , at the end of the day , it's still God's plan =D i wanna do well to glorify God , make my mum happy and make my dad proud of me . since young , i never make them proud of me before... =x this will be the time ! =D

so right now , o level is currently twenty days away and i am really terrified by this fact , how i wish i can distort this reality haha . but snap back , or rather slap myself . i gotta mug hard , during exams period is the time we grow most as we rely on God most . haha GOD BLESS ME =D

please do not fall , i still need you to hang on with me . shall we ? =D

i want You now , i don't care how =x

2006-10-02T06:31:00.000-07:00

Author : Casting Crowns
Song : Praise You In The Storm
Link : ask me and i'll send you or go youtube and just type these info above =D heehee

I was sure by now
That You would have reached down
And wiped our tears away
Stepped in and saved the day
But once again, I say...
That it's still raining

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear Your whisper through the rain
I'm with you

And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away
I'll praise You in this storm

And I will life my hands
For You are who You are
No matter where I am
Every tear I've cried
You hold in Your hand
You never left my side
And though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when
I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry
You raised me up again
My strength is almost gone
How can I carry on
If I can't find You

As the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
I'm with you

And as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise the God who gives
And takes away

I lift my eyes unto the hills
Where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord
The Maker of Heaven and Earth

[ psalm 121:1-2 ]

this is actually dedicated to those out there who felt that tough times are seriously can't be overcomed . the matter of fact is that we all know that God create all things to happen for a reason , a good reason ! and the fact is that we can't fathom why is it happening to us , unless we ask God to reveal it to us... why would we wanna blame or complain , sitting around doing nothing when trying times arrive , shouldn't we be prasing God because we know that God still love us , and that all things else doesn't matter actually . the truth is we already have a God that will intervene and He doesn't want us to worry because He can handle all our situations . why bother to care when you already have a BIG GOD to help you care ? isn't it redundant to keep on worrying when you can actually pray and ask God for a solution with a positive heart , a heart that trust in God ! =D let's not be overwhelmed by all things around us , but overcome them with our Almight God =D

keeping you in my prayers ,
i'll always love you =D
i thank God i have you .

2006-09-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

that's me and pastor ben and dinah ! =D the best picture of my life =D haha overjoyed !
yeah so stupid , i meant the two beind florence and me =x
G3 we are lovely ! =D
blessed =D our beloved pastor ! =D
wait a minute... that's the red seats for pastors... and yes , we are... aspiring to be ! =x haha
G3 is blessed , we will grow ! =D
when the black meet the whites =D ( notice my grammar and laugh )
no doubts , we are the HISTORY MAKERS =D

yea FINALLY , my photos are up ! i have joy overflowing ! =D let's recall back , it's really a memorable one ! great people ! great GOD =D i can't imagine how the church will become fifteen years from now ! glory to glory and we shall see this glory unfold =D haha but the thought of me turning around thirty fifteen years from now make me feel upset , growing up , eee i don't like =x haha and likewise , a picture meant a thousand words... i guess i shan't elaborate =D

childlike-ness
=D

2006-09-17T22:02:00.000-07:00

MUAKAKA MUAKAKA MUAKAKA , hereby i wanna laugh at those who didn't get to go for our church fifteen anniversary . because you totally have no idea how much you have missed out ! MUAKAKA but its alright , there'll be better ones next year and the years to come ! GLORY TO GLORY , remember ? heehee lets recap the dance item , those testmonies on screen , the songs presentation by our church , the preaching and one hundred people choir ! i'm wondering if there's exactly hundred on that day , could it be someone fell sick and couldn't turn up ? hmm... and where is the caregroup filming that we did ? haha they bluff me . okei maybe it's at the time tunnel which i didn't went to see properly .

know what ? i'm so so so so so so happy ! i really can't contain the JOY in me but to go around like a crazy girl saying that i took photo with pastor ben and pastor dinah ! but what to do , they're my idol okei ! they have never leave my idol list for like the first time i see them preach when i'm mature ! haha goodness gracious i'm really very happy ! heehee . yea not forgetting i took photo with our beloved pastor shirley , she's really a great pastor ! her love for the people and her heart for God is real big =D aiya , i really really really want to take photo with pastor jeff and pastor lawrence ! they're my idol too , in fact all pastors is my idol ! hehe

but i cannot upload the photos now , cos qinning have yet sent me , okei i'm so jealous k , cos everyone have updated their blogs regarding anniversary and with photos . but not me... boo hoo hoo =x but let me tell you , my photos are better cos there's pastor ben and pastor dinah ! =D heehee maybe i'll consider uploading the photo i took with pastor jeff the first day i stepped into nexus auditorium ? unless there's like popular demand then i'll do it . haha okei seem like i'm so step . okei no lah... but you can make your request by... yes you've guessed it correctly... TAG ! heehee =D i have smart friends ! =D

The Church Song ( barney's " i love you " tune )
i love church
church love me
we are happy family
with a hug hug here
and a hug hug there
won't you say we'll win the world !

haha okei pardon me for being such a lousy lyrics writer and i can't compose a song =p
but i really wanna form a band , but i don't what i can do .
aiya i want form band leh God ! and there's so much things i wanna do... the list cannot be done in here =p haha

haha okei lah , i'll upload the photos at my next post ! =D

i can't love You as much as You do...
but...
with love ,
with thanksgiving ,
with all i am ,
i'll bless Your name =D

2006-09-13T11:54:00.000-07:00

alot has been going through my mind the past few weeks . is it burdens , worries or concerns ? or is it something else . i'm really thinking alot these days , but i know that Lord will help me in all things =D haha i have also realised that i am not being people oriented when i am supposed to be , but i am not task as well , i'm just going into my comfort zone by being lazy . but i am observing , discerning , praying and analysing . haha does that help me to pay for the things i've not been doing . i guess not . . . so it's time i get out of my comfort zone and be a balance , both influencing and domineering in God's authority and in a right way and also to think and being stand firm as well =D that's like everything . never mind if you don't get what i say because when i know and God know it's enough =D haha

i'm so excited for hope church singapore fifteenth anniversary ! i'm really praying hard that my group and i have visitors ! lets not waste such a great opportunity to invite and through this event , i dare say that there's alot of lives that God gonna touch and changed . if you wanna see your family and friend's life being transformed , invite them ! i'm praying for visitors ! GOD SEE MY HEART ! =D you know who i wanna see coming , i shan't announce here =D

i know there's alot of silent readers for my blog ! GO TAG LEH ! DON'T SHY ! haha =D MAKE YOURSELF FEEL AT HOME AND COMFY AND TELL THE WHOLE WORLD THAT MY BLOG IS ACTIVE ! GET EVERYONE TO TAG =D haha .

at the foot of the cross =D
i lay down my life to you and Lord , see my undying PASSION ! =D

2006-09-09T12:44:00.000-07:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JNm7XmPqYGM

Artist: Casting crowns
Song: American Dream
Album: Casting Crowns

all work no play may have made jack a dull boy
but all work no God has left jack with a lost soul
but he's moving on full steam
he's chasing the american dream
and he's gonna give his family the finer things

not this time son i've no time to waste
maybe tomorrow we'll have time to play
and then he slips into his new bmw
and drives farther and farther and farther away

and he works all day and tries to sleep at night
he says things will get better;
better in time

so he works and he builds with his own two hands
and he pours all he has in a castle made with sand
but the wind and the rain are comin' crashing in
time will tell just how long his kingdom stands
his kingdom stands

his american dream is beginning to seem
more and more like a nightmare
with every passing day
"daddy, can you come to my game?"
"oh baby, please don't work late."
another wasted weekend
and they are slipping away

'cause he works all day and lies awake at night
he tells them things will get better
it'll just take a little more time

he used to say, "whoever dies with the most toys wins"
but if he loses his soul, what has he gained in the end
i'll take a shack on the rockover a castle in the sand
now he works all day and cries alone at night
it's not getting any better
looks like he's running out of time
'cause he worked and he built with his own two hands
and he poured all he had in a castle made with sand
but the wind and the rain are coming crashing in
time will tell just how long his kingdom stands
his kingdom stands

all they really wanted was You
all they really wanted was You
all they really wanted was You

true... it's indeed absolutely true that when we're taking things into our own hands , the whole thing will fall ! seek His kingdom first and all things will just follow ! =D don't ever take things into our own hand because by using our own mere strenght , we can't achieve anything ! we need that Someone that can help us ! don't seek to follow dreams that are meaningless which means without God , if you're doing this , the kingdom that you establish will collapse... only things that have God in the centre will last ! =D haha aiya you just listen to the song and hear the lyrics , don't bother the video , cos the quality also not nice one . haha and you'll get what i mean . allow God to speak to you =D

history maker =D

2006-09-08T11:06:00.000-07:00

evertime we'll see in magazines or newspaper featuring artistes/celebrities bags and whats inside their bag . haha and since i'm a celebrity wannabe , i guess i'll feature whats in my bag as well [ though i find that this section is rather lame but i'll just play along haha ] believe me or not... whether this stuff are really in my bag heehee =D

items in my bag :
1. postcards - you never know when you need it to fan yourself or just to write to someone to encourage them =D
2. spectacles - i don't have perfect eyesight , there are times when i can't see clearly and i need them desperately =D haha .
3. water bottle - the healthiest drink on earth , simply cos it doesn't contain anything . it's pure !
4. Bible - the best book on earth ! it encouarges me... the WOG ______ me . ( fill in the blanks )
5. mp3 - MUSIC and SERMONS ! plugged in and groove with it ! =D i can't do without it =D
6. organizer - if you fail to plan , you plan to fail =D muakaka =D
7. candies and chocolates - i'm a sweet tooth . chewing on something make me feel good =D
8. tissue paper - you never know when you or the people around you need it , it's a good habit carrying them around =D
9. comb and mirror - it doesn't harm to be bimbotic and to groom yourself . i wonder why my hair is still so messy ! ! !
10. keys and wallet with money - DUH ! of course with cash ! or else how to survive ? haha i don't have a habit of keeping my wallet in my pockets cos i find it to bulky... but handphone is a no choice =x
11. body spray - who likes to stink ? it's nice to be pleasant smelling =D
12. book - read and learn ! learn what ? read and find out =D [ recommendation - purpose driven life ! ] heehee =D

haha yupyup so that's the end of denise's interview =D erm okei that's pretty lame anyway =D well enjoy though ! haha , enjoy me being spastic and retarded .

oh btw ... i must confess that and make it clear to everyone who thought that the grads ministry is all about studying . if that's your thinking , i'm sorry but to apologise that you get it ALL wrong ! who says it's all about studying , God won't give us only such a lame ministry okei ! we gonna do lots of great and awesome works over here ! haha ! we gonna do alot ! lets grow together =D if you're curious what we are doing , ask me ! some are outreaching , family relationship , WOG ... yea that's common but sadly we have more time to do it than the rest =D haha i wonder why is it that i am actually emphasising alot in my heart and to my friends but i ain't doing it here . haha anyway i really mean what i've said , really hope and pray that everyone get the message across , not in the mind but heart ! =D

okei don't gross out ! mEngMeNg... yUyu... jOjO... ii lurrbb euuxx foreba andd tillx eeterniity worxXxXxsZsxssxSxz ! [ as i'm typing this , i'm having goosebumps.. it freak me out totally okei ! ] oh gosh ! i'm terribly disgusted by moiself... nope i meant myself ! ! ! haha ! i can't stand it already ! haha and i don't wanna play this anymore =D

Life With A Purpose !
i wanna see breakthroughs ! !
i'm still holding on ... still praying for you =D

2006-09-05T12:43:00.000-07:00

so... i was watching this video clip from youtube just now from david's blog and there the clip is " How Great Is Our God "
yupyup in it , there was over thousands of people raising their hands up to Heaven and i was totally wow-ed by it !
that sight was simply breath - taking !
simply magnificiant !
singing their hearts out " how great is our God... sing with me how great is our God "
you can clearly see that in each of the every indvidual , God had touched them before so intimately that all of them can't resist and deny the goodness of God !
=D

i can't fathom that why is it everyone is living their life as routine ? is our life really so dead ? i totally have no idea how to put this across as since now my mind again is still unsettled . there's simply too many worries going on ! but i'm still having faith on all our behalf , still praying for this mess ! Lord , there is none but You that have the power to intervene and speak to all of them ! =D i want this group to be ALIVE once again !

letting go of myself , holding on to God =D
goodbye comfort zones... it's time to get up and change everyone ! =D

alrighty , Almighty God , MOVE ! =D

2006-08-31T11:01:00.000-07:00

haha and yea it's really pathetic when you're feeling not so good and you happen to be listening to songs like simple plan - untitled =x for every sentence that they sing , you have to counter attack them . let me show you their lyrics ...

I open my eyes
I try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the pain
And I can't make it go away
No, I can't stand the pain

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

Everybody's screaming
I try to make a sound but no one hears me
I'm slipping off the edge
I'm hanging by a thread
I want to start this over again
So I try to hold on to a time when nothing mattered
And I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've done
No, I can't

How could this happen to me
I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this lifeI just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

I've made my mistakes
Got nowhere to run
The night goes on as I'm fading away
I'm sick of this life
I just wanna scream
How could this happen to me

wah imagine your at that moment you have alot of problems in life then you're listening to this song . oops there goes . haha . but we must always remember that though these songs , sometimes it might identify with us but at the end of the day , all these belongs to the secular world . counter them , all these songs though true [ sometimes ] but thats not the end of the world . there's Someone that holds your future =D so... next time please do not try to listen to songs that you can identify with when you're really depress unless you don't wanna get out of your situation, try songs like Jesus will still be there =D haha .

to those who wants to know whats wrong with me nowadays , its regarding the group . i'm really determine to not remain status quo for this group and my own spiritual life . its time to grow , we've not been outreaching for so long . and i thought outreaching should be our lifestyle , so what if we need to study , we can't neglect our lifestyle . when you study , you still eat , drink , sleep , bathe , shit , brush teeth and do every of your daily life routine thingy right ? so what more about loving God , spending time doing quiet time , outreaching ? we also can't neglect all these things . we study to glorify God , why not at the same time , involve non believers to study with us =D it's time to show them the care and concern that is genuine from our heart . i know we all know these ! but none of us are doing it . i'm already building relationship with my friends ... what about you ? the time is now , we can't waste another second more ! we need growth ! we ought to set the perfect minimun standard for the rest to build upon , the grads group that serve whole heartedly , that grow in quantity and quality , that glorify God with our results , that have breakthroughs ! are you in this with me ? =D
aiya i don't know how to bring the message across cos now i'm really in a state of mixed feelings , but you gotta see my heart's cry !

* lets not forget our identity =D we're called to serve !

servant that happens to be a student =D

2006-08-19T22:34:00.000-07:00

and ta-daa !
God again never fail to prove Himself to be real !

it's just a simple task of deciding which day it is for caregroup but yet kaysee and me was beaten by it . finally and stupidly that we should have just do this like super long ago to just ask God to make the decision with us . God shouldn't be the last resort but the first and only ! =D i prayed and decided CG to be on wednesday and i felt the sence of relieve and security that God gave me that this is the right choice =D however , we still faces people who can't come but now God moved and help us and made CG to be on tuesday ! =D we gonna trust in You and that this is Your perfect plans =D heehee

in a week i went for three CG , haha actually it's not the first time anyway . but this time it really made me realized that God's presence is getting stronger and stronger and more evident each time i sit at His lap and worship =D had G3's CG on tuesday , gotta attend ECE's CG on thursday for some matter and Grad's filming mock CG on friday =D this is really so fun ! =D the filming today was awesome , though we know that there are people filming us down during our CG but we really enjoyed each other's presence in the group and the fun and fellowship . not forgetting God is in the midst of all these and that He's simply real =D we just be ourselves and i believe that everyone was touched by God and enjoyed the people there . the funny thing is that we have to re-play the games that we play and let them film a second time . it's like those ACTION ! CUT ! DO THIS ! and then whatever we can say is " orh " and just whack it ! thank God they have no time for whole CG and that i didn't teach . yeah ! or else i'll accidentally bite my own tongue while trying to struggle with my stuttering and pronounciation of words . i know God don't want me to die young =D haha .

credits
casts - actors : yiqin , winstar and aloy
- actresses : joleen , yanyu , denise , pooiyee , peychyi , qinning and kaysee
* apprecitae the times we had together =D

we had dinner after that and eww the brothers are so disgusting , yanyu too is a brother so you're disgusting as well . we kept disturbing each other and giving each other our food . you might be wondering , what's wrong with being sharing , giving and loving ? it's really hell something wrong when u gave someone noodles and meat with gravy , vegetable and tomato with soup into someone's bowl of congee . so it's really gross right ? imagine it ! if you can't , next time we shall do it on you =D heehee . and it's really sympathetic that our poor silly little kaysee suffered such a terrible fate that she have to undergo such acts when she's with us . haha . hmm but it's so funny ! =D and last but not least , as usual we had bubble tea and study ! =x

God is always at the centre of all things , and definitely it includes our relationship with our fellow mankind ! =D

He loved ,
=D

2006-08-16T09:19:00.000-07:00

GOD ! ! ! ! ! ! ! BLESS ME ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! PLEASEEEEE ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! ! =D HELP ME SPEAK FLUENTLY IN PERFECT ENGLISH ALRIGHT ??????!!!!! CAN LAH RIGHT ? ? ? ? ? ? OOPS =X HEEHEE =P didn't i just say perfect english ? not perfect singlish ! remove all my singlishness and let me be flexible and fast to think of creative and interesting topic to speak on during conversation with my examiner . i'm having my English O'level Oral Examination tomorrow ! keep me in prayers ar u guys out there . else i'll punch you , kick you , smack you , tickle you , bully you , tease you , disturb you , make hell out of you , give you die 546841 times . . . and the list goes on and on and on anywhere and everywhere , anytime and everytime when i see you . heh heh don't try me , i'm daring you . i'm joking , i ain't a saidst , u know ? =D

YEAH ! i've made a multiply site . www.leeleelaalaalooloo.multiply.com it ain't update yet , everything is empty . actually i don't know i create it for what what sake ? probably its to make lesser url available for others to use =D yea , i've achieved the inconsiderate act number .534 . do i rock or rock ? [ hey i know u're saying i rot ! i stone you then you know ! muakaka =D ]

it's time to MUG ! yea we've a G3's code . when we say " lets get romantic " it means " lets chiong studies " cause we'll often go romantic macdonald to study , also knows as junction mac . haha what so how romantic to sadly study together . heehee okei i shouldn't dread it . haha . yuppie G3's gonna become the most happening group cause we have JESUS ! heehee ! yeah that's right all goup have Jesus , therefore we ought to set the perfect standard for the next generation to build upon on . we're the first batch and it'll be from glory to glory ! we'll study hard for God and not chucking God aside and glorify God with our results ! =D graduates all the way =D all the best ! =D

okei i find myself dumb by recording my own voice as i was practising my oral for tomorrow and listening to my own voice . i found out that i'm having sore throat . heal me =D haha . so dumb and i wanna sleep soon =D yea . . .

from God above
=D

2006-08-10T04:49:00.000-07:00

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okei i totally have no idea what have got into me ... hais ... don't hais ... later i 'll have wrinkles and look haggard . but i'm looking haggard now cos of all those sleepless nights . i'm exhausted ! i'm feeling lethargic ! strenghten me !

hmm yes oh yupyup i had caregroup today . G3 cg by the way =D and well . today's cg was hmm oh well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well well ............................................................................................................................................ thats all i can comment on cg today . okei i'll just add more , overall was fine . but... certain things shouldn't be saying here . like you know , this is the internet ! haha and i really don't know what to say for today's cg .............................................................. =x

aiya so it was a test of faith afterall . i was with qinning at pasir ris interchange going to florence's house for cg and i was tossing and playing with my wallet while waiting for the bus . and then when i board the bus , ta daa my wallet is gone just like that . we had a thorough search on our bags but we realized that my wallet was missing . its so scary cos i remember putting my wallet inside a paper bag that i was holding but i still couldn't find my wallet . without further a do , we alighted at the first bus stop which was quite a distant away from the bus interchange . we quicken our pace as we walked back to the interchange and went back to search but to no avail . i was panicked but not really panicking ... we went to the customer service of the bus interchange but it was packed so we decided to go the mrt control station where there's a higher possibility that my wallet will be there as the place where i lost it is also nearer to there . but the uncle say don't have and ask me leave down my particulars then we decide to take bus back but we din't have coins with us . we asked our cg mates to come over instead but it was actually quite troublesome for them so we decided to change for loose coins at the interchange coffee shop for the bus drivers to go back to florence's house . it really was God's plan that He plan everything so nicely that i'd end up at the ulu coffee shop . inside there's a customer service also , we went to ask if they found a wallet ... and YEAH ~ !! i saw my wallet lying there ! that wallet is given by meng , cannot lost one . haha . but the founder took away my token with sentimental values , my guitar pick which i waited to buy for a very long time and two dollars and twenty cents . haha but thank God the rest was intact =D thank You God =D

two more testimony . one funny one eerie . i was on the phone with yuyu turkey one day after school and my bladder's gonna burst if i don't get home fast . don't mind me being not virture speaking . but i was stuck in the middle of the road with the roads congested with heavy traffic . the vehicles are all speeding at high speed like nobody's business . i was stucked but i need a toilet to relieve myself . so i told yuyu and she prayed " God let the road be empty in ten seconds , in Jesus name , AMEN ! " we count down ten nine eight seven six [ there are lesser cars ] five four three [ i don't see any oncoming vehicles ] two one . and i'm crossing the road and no car can bang me down cos it was empty . i rushed home to clear my bladder =D and on that night we meet to cycle but yuyu's bike brokedown . we went to the bicycle shop to repair and so nothing to do , i decided to pump my bike . i took out thingy on the wheel to pump but cannot pump cos the thingy went inside the tyre . which means my tyre from with air become deflatted . yuyu prayed again and ask God to heal the lame , erm lame tyre cos it can't move . we went to watch love at zero degree at a coffee shop and when we came back my bike's tyre is really healed with air fully pumped =D we asked the uncle if he did it but he said he didn't . it's eerie right . haha =D

and if you think i'm gonna end here , you're actually ............................. wrong ! no lah you're correct dear =D heehee =D

Pull The Trigger , End This Illusion
Why Don't You Just Drop Dead , Lay Flat Right Down Dying
I'll Set My Alarm Clock Early Cos I Know I'm Always Late

2006-08-10T04:26:00.000-07:00

everyone in or outside kallang stadium , in front of the television set goes " wah ! so nice ! " when the firework displays before the very sight of everyone . i really was amazed at how God intelligently use a person's mind to create this beautiful thing . the fireworks are really very beautiful , maybe not eye opener cos i've seen it before alot of times . haha i met yuyu and jojo to watch the fireworks display cos the others couldn't make it . ah ha ! you've missed it ! but its alright , grads gonna watch together on saturday at esplanade , isn't it more romantic to watch on top of the rooftop accompanied by the stars... moon... breeze... clouds and each other company ! phew ... this is definitely gonna be more heart warming than yesterday's fireworks . it's not that i despised the pathetic fireworks of singapore but to compare, i'd prefer other country than ours . haha ours is really nice too ! =D but of course its the people and environmant that matters . we can create out our own atmosphere .

we went esplanade after that , wanted to have star gazing at the rooftop lying down with the perfect ambience , but sadly ! the rooftop is out of bound on that day and there's no stars . my sister say " where got people so stupid one ! see stars also cannot see in the city , so many lights then so bright , how to see the stars ? want to see also go east coast and see mah ! " haha okei i'll heed your advice =D who wanna star gaze with me at east coast ? prepare insect repellent ! =D haha perhaps after o level ? muakaka !

we went back to tampines and meet meng and we played arcade . haha next time i shan't play time crisis . i and meng died at the same spot but i wasted two bucks ... meaning i died twice and she only once . okei she's damn pro ! but i won her in daytona ! yeah ! =D haha saturday we gonna have picnic ! so happy ! =D

hmm oh well , this three are really my greatest friends i've met . though i can know of people longer than i know them , but they are just the closest =D we gonna walk through life together =D haha thank you for being in my life , pulling me up whenever i am down , just being there when i just need someone . haha and i don't have to say further cos i know all of us feel the same way as each other do =D i know , you know , God knows can already =D

｡ NNesindeES : Be Right Back . I'm On A Soul Vacation . Nudge Me If You Need Me . I'll Reply . Thanks ! ( Away ) • ♥™ I'll Be Back Before You Even Know It . Sorry To Keep You Waiting .

2006-08-04T09:03:00.000-07:00

hey fellow ecsan righteous sinners =D sounds contradicting , but well thats what we are =D haha . thanks for playing a part in my life . very true , nothing can last forever , only God can last =D but the fact that this bond that we had is irreplacable =D hmm ec3 is my first ever group like many of the rest , and no one can deny that they didn't grow here . ever since the day i stepped into ec3 , we've grown from a group that can only be count with a hand to a group that needs alot pair of hands to count . yes , we've grown much ! in the area of quantity and not to mention quality ! wah , i'm really really blessed that God place me in this team to work hard and play hard and hmm yes study hard . remember those overnights that we had at west cc mac . haha . you girls have indeed impact my life real hard and big big time , indirectly , directly , somehow or another . through you , then there's the denise today . [ in the area of patience and love ? haha okei i'm kidding =p ] i really love this group , lets look back and smile . not with regrets =D a very big thank you to every single ec3nians out there , you rock my socks ! without you are , i bet i can't hold on so long as well , its your encouragement , your affirmations , your actions that touched me deep from within . i'll never forget how much we've gone through , the joyous time when we work hard and reap ! the downcasted times when we're rejected . the every moment of our life , lets think back and move on , haha ... we have vision camp , two years of xmas , sub d camp , encounter camp , foundation build to last camp , espirit de corps camp , kingdom first living camp erm.. anymore ? i've forgotten . those escape trips , those MCGs , the cooking session , the concert , the drama , those harvest times . the every process . . . it has been really alot , till we can't mention every single stuff . but it's all because of everyone's presence that make it happen , that make it memorable ! =D haha though i kinda of miss this group but i know nothing can replace this bond and we're still serving as hard ! studies .. ministry ... lets grow into greater heights ! =D denise , don't get emo here . haha =x so many things i wanna say , but i may sound naggy , so i'd rather not be a grumpy old lady =D heehee . [ next time then i post individual message okei ? later my friends thought i lesbian again , everytime only about girls . haha . i'm STRAIGHT mind everyone out there haha ! =D ]

LOVE YOU GIRLS .
THANKS FOR YOUR PRESENCE THAT CHEERS ME UP =D
YOU ROCK MY erm... perhaps... HAIR ? OKEI IT DON'T MAKE SENSE =x

life's still as good . . . cos i'm maturing !
look back and smile =DDDDD

2006-08-03T10:08:00.000-07:00

HEY BABES AND HUNKS ! i'm gonna revive my dull blog soon . redemption of the rotten blog =D

so come on and tell the world that denise is gonna start blogging soon . once again , with more updates =D it's happening cause for the past one month , it has been a breakthrough for me in many areas =D it's dead i mean damn cool . heehee .

come on people , if you're a male or a female and are breathing with two nostrils , announce or rather just go out and shout " DENISE GONNA REVIVE HER BLOG ! "

yea so see you people soon alright ! =D

by the way , link me at another of my blog , www.bring-you-praise.blogspot.com i knew i can't care bout both blogs but i'll do my best =D muakaka life's good =D

-d'SAINT

2006-07-15T12:01:00.000-07:00

HALLELUJAH !
shirleen and yingying converted [ at that point of time , some people actually thought jingjing onverted again , muakaka =x ]
thank You Jesus !

yupyup my heart was pumping real hard , excited yet nervous at the very moment when i peeked and saw shirleen raising her hand there and then when eelee was inviting friends to know God . and eevn more as i was speaking , i know i can't speak properly and i wonder what the freak i'm sharing . i doubt she understand what i meant but i'm praying real hard that it was God's conviction at even for that second and that from then on , her christian journey will never have a stop . this is all i ask for , a growing marathon with our Lord Almighty ! cos Lord i know You gonna work somehow , having faith on behalf on her =D

today we had our second breakthrough prayer meet . phew thank God i ain't late =D or else i'll miss out big time . heehee =p anyway through the video clip , i saw with my very own eye multitudes worshipping God . there's a thousand million pair of hands raising . i have never thought i could see such things before . i mean gosh , its really so unbelievable and seem so impossible but the africans did it anyway ! =D we can start small , but never can we remain small ! and i strongly emphasize and re-emphasize again , NEVER ! as we were worshipping , tears just roll down [ seems as if lately i'm getting more and more emotional , nothing wrong with being sensitive =x ] and i was seriously pondering over that if i don't change their destiny , who will ? if i don't initiate , no one would , excpet maybe for my fellow yhopes . and thats precisely we're in this together . i don't want to be term as someone that people ridicule me or disappointed with me that i'm in such close relations and contact with them but yet i don't seize any opportunity to share the love of God to them . everyone MUST listen to the gospel at least once , and thats once for the seed to be sown on and mature =D

above all , i know all these ain't enough . the converts are too little . CLOSETS is up next ! there will be more ! Lord , i know =D and i thank You in advance =D

From The Inside Out
=D

2006-07-12T07:18:00.000-07:00

DENISE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ! ! !

haha just feel like calling my name ! anyway i find my name really nice , just wondering if it suits me . but i reckon so as beautiful name suits beautiful girl . like u all know , MTV VJ Denise Keller have a pretty face and Tampines Secondary Denise Leong have a pretty face as well !

well that's actually not the point . the point is that i just wanna scream my lungs out calling my UNIQUE name and wake myself up ! * WAKE UP SCREAM * i know all of us have been working real hard , it has been hard on us i know and that some of us had find that outreaching is really a enjoyment and their lifestyle . in fact , we don't mind to such lifestyle , or rather , we should in fact have this lifestyle ! but i still feel that despite working so hard , i don't think i've worked hard enough . lets not just look at the people in the gospel , as surely as the Lord lives , we'll sure to out beat them in terms of relationship with God and stuff . read and you'll know and be amazed and then make your life be even more inspiring . i mean that's the fact ! Glory and Glory ! and i've seen it happening right before my eyes now , i'm so encouraged by what our people is doing , examples like siewling and caijuan . they simply wow-ed me ! not only them , in fact everyone ! thank God for you people ! God will bless ! take this ! =D

i am even more inspired by what the people in the filipino group is doing . okei here's the catch , singapore youth population is MORE THAN that of the filipino people , it's incomparable lah ! but why is it that the filipino has already break a thousand and here we are still just committed and desperate to break this thousand goal ? true , it ain't about numbers , but look ! behind every number there's a life to it ! heyyyyy ... mind you ! we started our youth group much much earlier than the filipino . and they have always said that teenagers are the easiest to reach out to ! simply because we're more open to such stuff unlike those experienced young adults and adults who have been through so much . i can't believe it and how can we allow this to continue going on ?! we're not being competitive but this is a holy competition ! lets all do this together baby ... [ muakaka anyway there's nothing wrong to say sweet talks and being touchy am i right ? hmm ... well . . . ]

COME ON ! once we're in , we're never out ! =D
* i don't wish to be out either =p *

have your way ,
=D

2006-07-10T07:40:00.000-07:00

my GOD is BIGGER than the BOOgie man
=D

can't wait for closets ...
if you miss this , you'll miss out big time ! and not only that , i believe none of us want to be term as a suaku that misses out the biggest event in singapore !
come on down to Cuppage Plaza , Nexus Auditorium , Fifth Storey
Neasrest MRT station : Somerset MRT station
Buses : i only know buses 7 , 14 , 65 and the rest i forget but there's alot lah =D
Date and Time : 22nd July and 29th July ; 12.30pm to 2.00pm , 3.00pm to 5.30pm
die die also must check this out - www.yhope-closets.blogspot.com [ all informations are there ! ]
contac me if there you're interested or there's any queries =D

see ya there ! =D

2006-07-09T09:14:00.000-07:00

WAH my week ROCKS totally !
because i'm enjoying every moment of His presence !
and also the times of chioging for harvest which is to be a enjoyable moment . though we find it tiring and hectic but despite it all , even if we're drained , we're damn excited ! =D because we know that God is faithful and He'll move when He see that all of us are chionging so hard according to His ways . the harvest will come anyway but we don't want to miss out this great opportunity to grow ourselves in both quantity and quality ! and that the JOY of bringing someone into this family and receiving salvation ! =D we're saved to save people ! =D i'm really believing with all i can and i'm gonna go beyond it with all i can as well ! maximise me ! for faith without deeds is dead . but i'm sorry to say that all of our faith is alive and kicking ! muakaka =D

i will love You Lord
with all my heart
with all my mind
with all my soul
with all my strenght

i'm trading my sorrows
i'm trading my pain
i'm trading it now
for the JOY of the Lord

God's heartbeat ; bring You praise
=D

2006-07-02T09:15:00.000-07:00

time for worldcup updates . haha i'm rather slow cos i believe those who watch world cup will know the news by now . hee =D but anyway PORTUGAL WON ! yeah ! not that ENGLAND is lousy but its just too sad lah huh . haha =D and aww BRAZIL lost ! how come ! though i expected FRANCE to win but i just wanna realize my childhood hope that for every worldcup matches , BRAZIL will be the champion . so in my " innocent " heart [ puke * ] , BRAZIL is still the champion !

well hais ...
aiya oops don't sigh

hmm currently i'm really desperate for available contacts ! gimme gimme gimme ! ! ! this group will multiply ! i believe with all my heart . i'm not feeling good and thats the whole point , if i'm still feeling comfy with this kinda of growth , i'm not serving at all . it has been long , really long . six months i'm feeling like this , and recently i can't stand it anymore , i can't act strong and be brave anymore . no more false front . i'm really troubled . i'm getting emotional , but its not controlling me lah , don't worry . haha . but i'm really excited despite feeling heavy =D

anyway ecsan who may be reading this :
please stop and go www.fatso-minded.blogspot.com to blog down our testimonies every time we have the opportunity to [ don't just go to yours , haha ] before this group really become The Legendary EC3 , lets show to the rest how much we've grown in a short span of one month ! let the next and future generation see and be amaze by us . we can make an impact , AMEN ? haha =D lets do this together cos we're in this together =D Apes and Baboons , you girls really rock my limegreen / red / yellow / purple socks lah ! i LOVE you girls lah ! =D
haha i'm trying real hard not to get emotional here , as you girls know i'm very emo . LETS RUN THIS LAST LAP TOGETHER , WHEN WE'RE FEELING NOT RIGHT , WE KNOW FOR SURE THAT THERE'LL BE SOMEONE TO PULL US UP ! =D
* don't think too much and then cry ar , lets get on task first , after that we can then celebrate God's faithfulness and each other's presence and cry and laugh together =D *

once upon a time in love

2006-07-01T01:57:00.000-07:00

yea apparently school started , for those who are seriously retarded and unaware that school started . yes school started , and for some , thats the start of boring days and a torture with books . haha well for me , initially i thought so , but i totally i have no idea why i ain't that sick now . perhaps the momentum has came for me to study and get touchy with books . duh of course i still do complaint but not as much as the past , and now for ripley's believe it or not ! =p seriously ! i did my homework ! ! second time this year ! first is during june holidays . unbelievable ? believe it ! =D

but hor , as some of you know , i like black pen , i don't like blue pen . because first of all , i don't like the colour cos the colour it produce don't look nice [ i don't think i explain myself haha ] secondly , the colour is too common and thirdly i see the colour until i feel sick of it . here comes the irony , there's not a single black pen inside my pencil box , weird huh ? cos it all run out of ink ! black pen ! calling black pen ! i need YOU ! =p heehee , anyone kind enough to sponsor me ? =DDDDD

right now , the grads , we only left with a month to go out and grab our retain power disciple converts ! i'm so so so so so burden and so so so so so excited about this thing . we really need to leave a legacy behind , or else how are we going to study in peace ? see my desire ! Lord , must gimme ! use me to turn this into a miracle ! =D i don't have to say much here , cos i know that You know =D

arghhhhh , just finish watching world cup . ohmygosh can ! it's ARGENTINA against GERMANY . i want ARGENTINA to win lah ! first ninety mins , ARGENTINA change goalie and the score was 1-1 after that extended time , but the score remains . so it was the best and most thrilling part , GERMANY is well known for scoring for penalty and their goalie is good . and thus for penalty the score was 4-2 . and GERMANY won . i don't like this lah ! so sad can for ARGENTINA ! i want ARGENTINA but there are not out of top four ! i'm gonna play table soccer and change the score ! =p ARGENTINA will own the world cup . haha actually i like BRAZIL most lah =D
i'm not a soccer fanatic except once every four years . it's funny and exciting watching people running exhaustedly for a ball that they just use it to kick . haha . but it's a great invention though . yea christiano ronaldo from PORTUGAL and ronaldo from BRAZIL are good players =D and after this world cup fever is down , my fever will be down too . haha in fact i'm not really crazy about this , i don't watch every match except for those matches i watch , happens to be the thrilling ones . some match are indeed hilarious . watch and you'll know =D heehee =p

BRAZIL WILL WIN THE WORLD CUP 2oo6 !

a heart after Thee ,

2006-06-25T06:25:00.000-07:00

oh SHUCKIES !
school's like gonna start soon and frankly , this damn sucks like crap can ! fine , i know i shouldn't be responding this way but arghhhhh . oh well , perhaps without the fact of having to study , all things else is alright . and definitely i know why i need to have schooling , for the sake of the next generation and for glorification . haha and thankfully there are something worthy to go school for , for a great cause mind you !

so school , here i so don't feel like coming but i still ought to come !

and okei denise , please change your freaking attitude regarding studies ! make it good !
hence now , i'm TRYING to do homework , but it seem to be no avail . someone nice please watch over me , cause it'd be horrible =D

i'm excited for the harvest and i forsee great miracles ! =D
psalm 23:4

2006-06-21T23:42:00.000-07:00

i was recalling back my past few days

and phew . . .
it was always a false alarm
a blessing in disguise

it was always when things seem so out of hand
and ta-daa !
God just intervene
when we , do things according to His ways
He just simply somehow back us up ...
easily !

like duh ~
He's the Almighty !

recently i have been evaluating on my life
wah , so much to change .
i'm willing as well =D

must grow to be have more self-awareness
observe more
exercise my gift discernment
cos i know it aint a occasional thing
not a once off thing
not also frequent
not often as well
but constant .

be good steward of what the Lord has entrusted
family
friends
ministry
time
and so much more . . .
haha but it's fulfilling when i did a great job in all these areas

the time has come
time to be faithful
time to be fruitful
and forever and ever amen .

i'm ever hungry
ever thirsty
feed my souls
let it not to be dry for ever one moment

haha so that was spiritual food
talking about physical food
i'm eating on full corn now ~
and wah seh , very difficult to eat
cup corn is indeed easier

and hor , sometimes i wish i'm not a self motivator
cos now i really don't feel like doing my school work [ and i'm ALWAYS like this , say AMEN ]
someone please come and nag at me ! ! [ threaten me also can ]
and i don't want to make today fruitless
thats the problem with people and task oriented person
wonder why God made me so balance
made me so self contradict
haha but i know i'm not crap !
=D

life's good .

2006-06-21T10:46:00.000-07:00

Lorddddd !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

there're hidden stuffs inside the word " Lord "
but when i know and God knows . .
it's enough !
=D

and all these shall be done swiftly !
Amen !
=D

then God answered : DONE ! =D

REFUGE .

2006-06-17T23:20:00.000-07:00

woaaaaaaahhhh !

let the rain of Your presence :
let the rain of Your presence fall on me
everyday that i live
with every breath i breathe
let the rain of Your presence fall on me
everywhere that i go
Lord let Your presence fall
rain on me
love divine
joy unspeakable
overflowing in my soul
this heart of mine
is refreshed and at rest
in Your presence
in Your presence

i've got the joy :
there's annointing in the air
i can feel it everywhere
i've got power in my soul
so let the river flow
can you feel the rushing wind
its blowing deep within
my spirit is alive
my life has been revived
i've got the joy
i've got the peace of mind
i've got the faith
in the holy ghost
that fills me everyday
i've got the life
i've got the melody
i've got the word
the word of God
that sets me free

haha and yuppie ! this two praise and worship song [ not respectively ] are the description and expression of how i felt this few days ! J.O.Y ! yes ! JOY ! haha =D
and apparantly there can be JOY even if i have some red stuff on my nose . okei , i don't know what on earth is that ! but it's definitely not a pimple can ! but God-knows what it is . haha . and people , STOP [ its capital letter mind you , means i'm serious and i mean business ] teasing that God-knows-red-thingy on my nose , or else i might really isolate from everyone else and dare not go out . it's freaking scary lah that thingy ! i just woke up one day and found out that there's this red thing , its like ohmyGod can ! i'm not sounding bimbotic lah but u gotta have my heartbeat ! [ with exclaimation mark ! ] i'm praying hard that God will have mercy and favour on me , cast that You-know-what-red-thingy away from my nose ! in Jesus name ! AMEN ! and the red thingy is a heart shape , so disgusting right ? i don't love you at all lah ! i hate you alot alot ! GO AWAY NOW !

but through it all , despite the fact of the God-knows-red-thingy on my nose , my life is JOYFUL ! it's happening ! =D

2006-06-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

when i just started out in my ministry . . .
someone asked me this question . " what do you picture yourself becoming FIVE YEARS down the road ? "
back then . . .
i do not dare to DREAM BIG for God
so my replied was to join a ministry [ perhaps dance ] and also to become a UNIT LEADER !
yea ! and i've accomplish the one in joining a ministry !
but ...
HELLO !
we do not have to take FIVE YEARS in order to become a UL !
so now . . .
if someone were to ask me again " what do you picture yourself becoming FIVE YEARS down the road ? "
my reply would be ...
to become the YOUNGEST DISTRICT LEADER !
and to establish DANCE MINISTRY into greater heights !
like our DREAMS , in our very own ministry , there would be ministries as well ! =D

today i went for Crash Course for New Testament Survey , it's GOOD ! not only do they impart knowledge of the historicals background , but other than that , there are many principles and applications we can learn and practise =D its like two in one ! =D
afterwhich , we had DANCE RETREAT ! =D lets go into the part whereby we share why we join dance and hey mind you ! all dancers are BIBLICAL , don't cha dare mess with us , cos ya messing with God ! haha =D it's really AMAZING to see how the dancers want to MINISTER to the masses with our dance moves and IMPACT others and how the dancers gathered and have fun . dance is really a GREAT GREAT ministry ! =D oh we shared testimony too , look , qixin grew so much in dance , who still dare say joining a ministry can't make you grow ! and Lord , i pray so much for future SHEEEEEP like qixin ! her HUNGER for You , her EXCITEDNESS , her PASSION , her FIRST LOVE , her CHILDLIKENESS , her everything is really a WONDERFUL and INSPIRING testimony to us ! i'm so amazed at how God uses people with pure WILLING heart ! =D yea ! dance is AWESOME and i really LOVE the ministry and them alot ! thank God for placing you in part of my life and you guys really taught me alot in WILLINGNESS and HUMILITY and more ! =D

and i know we're all READY to be use by God in all areas ! =D

" i will go ! where You want me to go ! "

2006-06-11T09:25:00.000-07:00

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i can't stand it anymore ! ! ! ! !
i'm gonna jump off the building !!!!!!
oh my daddy !!!!

hmm yes , i'm back from camp , back from fifteen hours of sleep , but i heard of people who slept for twenty hours . i can't beat that ! haha =D

well , camp is AWWWWWWWWWWWWW so AWWWWWWWWWWWWW , can't find a word to describe it ! erm perhaps the word is mind blowing !

yea the spirit lives within me , i can do all things because of He's enablement ! =D sixty ! it shall be done ! the indwelling and the outpouring of the HS is so evident and tangible throughout the past few days in camp and we ain't gonna let it stop , but it'll be ongoing ! yes and amen !

i love my sheeeep
i love my shpeherd
i love my caregroup
i love my unit
i love my district
i love my church
i love my ministry

arghhhhh i love every single one of you in church alot lah ! haha =D because if you guys ain't there , the camp wouldn't be a successful one . together we made this camp possible ! =D we experience God in one accord =D

the fellowship is really fun and the games that brought unity for east , the other districts that alliance together to attack us did made the whole east united ! thank God for you guys ! =D muakaka =D the praise and worship that's so refreshing that brought revival in our hearts ! who can resist the presence of God there and then ? who can deny that God is not real ? teachings are so inspiring , the very logos word from the WOG became a rhema word , thats the living word ! that's God given ! and everything , it's just God's plan ! =D

the least of us will become a mighty nation ! yes ! ! haha i'm so excited ! so what if i'm the smallest now ? i'll just whack and knowing that the spirit will enable me ! i don't care , cause this is a do or die issue ! use me cause i am freaking willing ! arghhhh , i can't sit still now , i am really very excited and convicted and convince that God will pour down His blessings and i'll collect it like nobody's business ! =D

satan , move aside , cause no one is gonna entertain you , all of us are so spirit filled that no one knows you exist ! our journey with God is a sustainable one , is a renewed one , is a spirit-filled one ! here i am , use me ! to break sixty , to disciple people to become CL and to grow myself to a UL =D and every single thing =D all will be done in due course to God's timing ! =D the Lord promised it to be swiftly ! =D

spirit-filled

2006-06-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

OH MY DADDY ! !
one more day to encounter !!!!
to be exact it's eleven more hours and thirty minutes ! !
can't wait for camp !
cos it gonna be great !!
gonna experience a greater height of praise and worship ! !
stepping into the next level of spiritual maturity !
fun and biblical fellowship with my sheeps ! ! !
and many more ! !

lets really pray hard for this camp . lets not let Jesus pass us by just because we didn't prepare our heart well . i'm really praying hard for my brain memory ! to remember the dance steps , we wanna minister to the people !!! oh not forgetting , pray for christine's ankle , Lord please heal her ! and also , my camp objectives , i set it to meet it ! =D praying hard that my people can really be ministered by every of the activities , all the way from opening to games to dinner time to bathing , sleeping , concert , praise and worship and closing , and whatever i've missed out . last but not least , for myself ! =D haha ! =D

i'm all ready ! [ except i have yet packed bag . haha ]
come on and move me ! =D

2006-06-04T07:07:00.000-07:00

WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! CL one day camp so COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i really learned alot !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! the worship is really great , its been long since i last had a extended worship with God and God really flood me with His presence =D the prayer is also great , yeah finally prayed earnestly for myself =D first and foremost , my spiritual life must be always good in order to lead my people to the greater extent .! =D oh yeah , we had sharing and QNA today with shirley , initially din had a chance to ask her my questions but i managed to ask her when we're walking to have our dinner . wah , i really find that pastor shirley is really a great leader . she's one leader that inspires me alot ! pastor dinah and jolene tan also . thank God for her perseverance on me . also other leaders that i worked with before ! supposed its all leaders in east and the leaders from my ministry . they're really strong people of God =D

i'm praying for myself that once i know my spiritually life is gonna be invaded by satan , i will guard my heart and pray against it ! it can be done ! and in fact , this is what we always should ought to do !
yeah today learned that we ought to grab every opportunity , and most importantly is JUST WHACK !!!!! wah and also the sermon by our founder is so mind blowing ! hear this " ... if half of the world's population is christian , it means that we have two million churches and we have another 28 million churches to go and this is simple ... as long as we do it in God's way ! ... " wah all of us really feel like jumping down when we heard this , we can't even build a caregroup . but yes and amen ! we can do it in God's way and it shall be done ! we can do all things through christ to give us strenght !

LORD ! GROW ME !

i'm all ready for camp !
God ! use me as a vessel !
here i am , use me !

2006-06-03T10:06:00.000-07:00

today is really a great and exciting day . i can't deny the fact that God's hand is upon all His children ! so long as our hearts have decided to commit to Him and desire to love Him and His people =D if we have this , nothing can hinder our relationship with God unless we hold back our commitment .

yea , so the whole long naggy story goes like this . i attended both first and second service today , and well it has been a long time since i last stepped into first service . this time round i accompanied jacq and her friend , tricia , to first service , she's already a believer of christ but have yet been committed to a local church . throughout their praise and worship i saw that she's really enjoying herself in the tangible presence of God , and no doubt , first service praise and worship was indeed better . haha . i like the part that it bomb me hard , the part when bruce and gwen spoke out cos it really struck me . so Lord , i'm willing and i'm ready for you to work a revival in me ! =D here i am , use me ! =D hee so during altar call , pastor jeff call for those who wanna be baptize in the holy spirit to step to th front . tricia obeyed and we started praying her her , soon and very soon , she started to broke out in tongues ! imagine a girl that is not connected and now she came and received the HS ! wah that's the power of God using people of faith and desire for Him ! =D God is REAL ! i teared , cos i couldn't hold it back , that's tears of joy even though this is the first time i see tricia . haha .

after that i attended second service , pastor jeff approach for both service was different , the second more fun and altar call was GOOD ! during altar call , pastor jeff called for those who have yet receievd the spirit to come to the front and pray together . unfortunately , it wasn't the same situation as the previous service but it was a complete change . so i'm faced with the negative and i realize that God is still not giving up ! however i teared again but this time round with different set of emotions which is tears of despair . but i know that there's more than to meet the eyes during camp ! =D cos i know God won't give us up !

so i had a small chat with ah be during dinner time , you'll be in my prayers =D God never give us problems and then leave us to die but He go through it together with us =D then we went for CG class for east training class , it's really fun and i finally know that we should not sing siongs that we don't understand . that's like a revalation and great insight . i think i'm lousy , haha but God never says i am . heehee =D after training class , we had a meeting with jacq , i think we did some sharing of stuffs , i really learned alot today . the key lies in whether do you expect to learn ? and the question i'm asking myself is " am i ready and willing to have a revival in our life ? " God is GOOD ! ALL the time , ALL the time , GOD is GOOD !

God i also know that certain things if i want it i ought to learn how to wait in expectation =D and i really wanna disciple someone from lower sec and have the criteria of FATSO and desire and expect God to move and dare to dream and do big things for God ! specific prayer , God help ! or is my requirement for the HS too much or what . haha =D whatever it is , God i really need to grow and mature in the area of word centered , more about the WOG and knowledge in order to pass down to my disciple ! =D

today is the day of receiving and learning lots of stuff and i'm truly amazed by the people and how God works . yes and i'm really looking forward for tomorrow's CL camp and soon ! the day that is approaching which is CAMP ! we gonna rock NUS ! yeah ! haha =D

that anyone who calls on Jesus ,
they will be saved !

2006-06-02T09:08:00.000-07:00

yeah !!!!! the day that all PASSIONATE yhope have been waiting for is finally round the corner ! come on ppl , lets really grow and grow during this whole camp . get a blast from God and keep this blast ongoing ! i'm sure that this camp is gonna impact us great time cos we're gonna ENCOUNTER a spirit-filled camp ! so no doubt that the holy spirit is going to move in all of our midst and cause us to be so deeply touched ! =D i really trust in God that my people will really grow alot from this camp , not only them but me too , i know God wouldn't deprive me .. right ? haha =DDDDD we're going to expereince God's tangible touch big time and remember to prepare your own heart . be ready for God to move and really EXPECT ! know that during this camp God will confirm speak to you and you can experience Him , so don't deprive yourself from God's presence and start preparing your own heart ! haha and i've set my camp objectives , i'm gonna meet them and mature from all these =D heehee =D

this few days i've been travelling alot and the time spent in buses are either catching up of lack of sleep due to waking up early and sleeping late , or spending time with God , either reading the word of God or praying . well these times are actually great and awesome time , haha cos i like to sleep and the best part is i can spend more time with God . i've learnt alot this few days , especially from God and through the people around me . thanks to my sheeps , leaders ! =D haha =D

today we had east RC house warming . that's our first ever RC house warming . i think it's really great , though there's only a short time but looking through how God has brought us through so many RCs till the RC now . i think He's really faithful to bring us through and of course we ought to do the same too =D God's doing is too profound for us to comprehend and therefore i believe He brought us to the old RC for a very good reason =D haha

recently this song kept repeating in my mind : The Potter's Hand

Beautiful Lord, wonderful Saviour
I know for sure all of my days are
held in Your hand
Crafted into Your perfect plan

You gently call me into Your presence
Guiding me by Your Holy Spirit
teach me dear Lord
To live all of my life
through your eyes

I'm captured by Your holy calling
Set me apart, I know You're drawing me to Yourself
Lead me Lord, I pray

Take me
mold me
use me
fill me
I give my life to the Potter's hand.
Call me
guide me
lead me
walk beside me
I give my life, to the Potter's hand.

i think this song is good and it also expresses my feelings and emotions well . haha =D
that's my prayer to God =D

2006-05-26T10:42:00.000-07:00

i really dislike or is it hate it when people [ when two aunties tag team ] just try to talk lameshit infront of me and my mum . and i mean duh that my mum will be taken in . how can they make not-so-false accustaion , haha i dunno what i'm typing also . perhaps i meant some part is true some parts are not . but well , its ridiculous to ask me to accept and promise them some insensible terms and conditions , which are just too stupid to be name . and in fact , have anyone of u came aross anyone that don't like to be told to do somethings . and the more u demand them to do , the more they will rebel . yea i can be like that too , especially it comes to something which i really find it hard to do like studies . hmm and i really believe that sometimes people can be quite a bitch , and they do live up to that name for that particular moment . well , i'm sorry for being kinda of harsh at that moment as well . [ during the crap parent meeting session ] pls apologize for being bitchy alright ? haha ! okei , done i shouldn't be like this =X SORRY !

well , i realize that i'm not a total I/D person [ personality test ] when i'm stressed or kinda of cuaght up with stuff , my C goes up . haha , yea have been thinking alot lately , especially during those long bus journey . and there's alot of stuff i wanna thank God for , without that extra dosage of strenght , i doubt i still have the ability to run the marathon . God always never fails to give us a helping hand and pull us up . i think its really great to always spend time walking home or on the bus pray , read or fellowship on the phone , so long its spending our times wisely . u can take that time to learn alot . haha yea =DDDDD

oh yea , i gotta be ready to mug , i'm always mugging after exams, for no good reasons . i think i'm really mad. hee =p o level is only like around five months more . can't afford to lose time . am i sounding like your teacher ? but i don't aspire to be one . their job is to either make students look up to them or despise them to the core , and most belongs to the latter . haha thats very sad indeed . it's really very pathetic , but i guess their salary is kinda of high , but whatsoever , they get paid to let the whole congregation hate them . haha quite an easy job isn't it ? so ... let me try to be the unique one to love u all , to all the teachers out there, though it's not teacher's day , but i pity your job , so i love you lor ! haha !

change me , mould me
to the kind of person You've created me to be

countdown to o level chinese
two days ! !
coundown to encounter
twelve days ! ! !
countdown to world cup
thirteen days ! ! !

2006-05-24T07:44:00.000-07:00

wah so dumb lor / leh / lah ! today is really very idiotic ! i mean , would u find it interesting if u walk out of rc and realize that one of your shoe went missing ? hey ! this is pure stupid , freaking stupid ! ! i mean the person or was it a bird ? imagine yourselve going home with just one shoe on your feet ? well , chiamin was worse , she got no shoe at all . haha ! oops i'm bad ! =X

but well , i thank God for ahbe , florence and pooiyee for finding back our shoe , u guys really make me felt love when u all climb up and down the stairs . i'm not sadist , but the effort that they put in really touched me =D haha , wonder if my love language is acts of service , but i guess not =p i really find that person [ if its really someone ] very lame , or childish , what a game that he/she play . i don't think u'd like it if someone were to throw your shoes and socks down the stairs from eleven story . how i wish you'll have feet infection , your feet will grow sores and have blisters . that everytime u buy a pair of shoe , u either got the wrong pair which is in different colour , size or type . haha ! i shall not curse ! =x but how come they so immature ? okei , i admit doing that kind of stuff when i was young , but u see , that time i'm young , i was childish in thinking . okei , and now i should pray for the person to convert then when the person join our church , i'll disturb him/her everytime i see her . yea ! haha =DDDDD next time we should install a camera outside rc and catch those who are preying on our shoe or just invest in a shoe rack .

and with regards to my previous post , i ain't kincking up a big fuss on DVC , but can't i let some people out there who have yet learn the truth to learn about it . and a fiction will always remain as a fiction =D

counting down to o level chinese :
five days !
counting down to camp :
14 days !

2006-05-22T09:28:00.000-07:00

it's indeed hilarious ! why all these The DaVinci Code fever . though i admit i really wanna watch it . but can't u guys out there just get a life ! look , Dan Brown's book is a fiction , and i shall say it again , its a fiction ! it's a lie ! get it ?! and how can a fiction become a fact ? if u seriously can't tell the difference , there's something call dictionary which u can purchase at any outlet of popular and check out the real meaning of what's a fiction and what's a fact . i believe after that , u can get a clearer picture on what is fiction and what is fact . and if u're smart enough , u can actually derive to a point that Dan Brown's Da Vinci Code is a make up story !

if u all wanna watch the movie , u ought to have a certain standard of english before u can actually watch it and understand . so i'm actually quite thankful that my england not very the powderful and i think i can't comprehend what those actors and actress are saying . well , this show is rather confusing , not only the part that i can't comprehend the movie but the storyline that package till so well that most people are taken in by it and even confirmed that there's no god in the world and the what the bullshit of mary marrying Jesus . all the nonsense and stuff .

it's actually good if people out there can have basic general knowledge [ i confess that i have to buck up on this area as well ] before they confirmed on something which is not true . i really can't figure out why people wanna be taken in by lies . it's not fun being a victim . first of all , mary did not marry to Jesus ! and how in the world can a mother marry her son ? anyone who is not sick in the mind will know that it's against the law . unless Dan Brown is sick in the mind to pen this down . ahha sick in the mind ! leeleelaalooloo ! and regarding the portrait about the mona lisa and the Lord's last supper , pls find out from the net that Leonardo Da Vinci which the the artist of these two paintings like to somehow put his own potrait into his artpiece and change the features and everthing . kinda of dumb but who cares , he's still a great painter afterall . those who is confused about the painting of the Lord's last supper about whether the person beside Jesus is mary or not , pls log on to this webby for more informations http://deeperstudy.blogspot.com/2005/12/da-vincis-last-supper-already-coded.html
the details here tell us that in the painting itself , the person beside Jesus is not mary magdalene but John son of Zebedee [ obviously a guy , u don't name your daughther John or your son as mary right ? ] Leonardo loves to depict John the baptist as a feminine man as he was very young at that time . sometimes its hard to catch a artist impression and for whatsoever reasons why he drew him as so girly , pls go the webby and see =D there are actually more webbies other than only these , can check out on the gospel of phillip and such =D

haha i guess its better to finish the bible first then read the books of Dan Brown , especially The Da Vinci Code . afterwhich check up on webby regarding The Da Vinci De-coded . haha . you'll have a clearer view . christians , don't allow your faith to be waver by such a baseless movie which is a fiction ! haha .

=D

You danced over me
while i am unaware
You sing all around
but i never hear the sound

2006-05-20T12:10:00.000-07:00

hmm been looking around people's blog and i realize that most of them are constantly updating their blogs . well it's not that my life ain't interesting but i just don't have the habit of blogging them down . because how can life be boring with Jesus ? but now , i'll just do it for the sake of doing , haha .

browsing through many blogs and took a test regarding love language from this blog .
physical touch : 11
quality time : 10
affirming words : 5
acts of service : 3
receiving gifts : 1

hey people , i'm not really all about physical touch , take a look , my quality time is high too ! haha , and though my receiving gifts i don't feel that loved , but at least i scored one , which means i still feel love and i certainly don't mind receieving them . haha . right now i'm wondering why in the love language there's no giving gifts , perhaps only Jesus can fit this criteria . haha =D

yea and when everyone's been there and done that with the posting of " ... i've finally finish mugging ! ..." and now it's my turn and apparantly i'm like a week slow , and yea ! i'm so done with mugging . or in fact , did i mug ? and my conscience replied , NO ! okei sorry then , haha .
well and recently i got into a few trouble , but well , not gonna mention them , not gonna stumble u guys . haha .

and i believe with all my heart that my group is gonna grow , peeps , pls catch my heartbeat and pump it with me alright ? and for the whole caregroup , get ready for the blast for cg , the core and us are working hard to improve the group . and we really love u guys ! haha , God will intervene in our midst ! =D to the core and meng , pls keepwatch over my actions and speech . thanks ! TOGETHER , WE MAKE A DIFFERENCE ! together we build , the ec3 heartbeat ! AWESOME ! ai zai !

i'm counting down to encounter God in camp ! yea baby , it's nearing !

You chose me
You called me by name
from the moment that You touched my life
i have been change

Called to be Your child ,

2006-04-09T07:19:00.000-07:00

haha wah i'm back before my blog turns rusty . a round of applause for me and pat of my shoulder ! haha hopefully i can be discipline in doing this yea . haha =D

You are so ever faithful ! there's no doubt that whenever we've passed our testings , blessings will eventually comes along ! my group had overcome in some areas of our life and now we're collecting fruits . we're not gonna stop now and we ought to make ourself busy in collecting fruits ! i'm indeed grateful to God for answering my prayers ! =D yea its not in vain and not down the drain . rhymes does it ? hee =D come on my dear people , never stop your excitement and PASSION , i'm always with u girls with undying PASSION and spirit ! muakaka !

never say die yea , evangelism is our lifestyle and discouragements is the schemes of satan . don't let that gay brat get in our way and he'll be so dead when he tries to mess with us , cos he's messing with our God ! when God is for us , who can be against us ? !

yupyup during this period of easter , don't forsake our studies as well huh . we're servant who happens to be a student , don't sound happening . haha . let's mug till we drop [ God won't allow us to drop ] and serve our butts out . so crude . haha . sorry . lets aim to bring more lost souls and let them experience the love of God . the feeling is so exciting right ? i love it so much ! hehe =D lets be busy collecting fruits .

haha i'm like talking to my people only , okei well , friends out there , God loves you ! its shown through practically and virtually everything . the cross , the nature , our life ... blah blah blah . wanna know Him ? tell me , i'll be free to help ! like seven - eleven . my phone is twenty four - seven =D

undying PASSION,
denise =D

2006-04-06T07:52:00.000-07:00

So! it has been a month plus since i last update my blog. i can do some revival over here . haha . oh well , so this is the main highlight of the past month...
- PASSION!!
Yea baby ! never felt so better . life's improving. cool , and i guess its really time for me to buck up my studies. soon and very soon it gonna be MUGGING time for me. and apparantly that really sucks for me . BUT .. i can do all things through Christ . ( i'm tring to say AMEN! ) erm...AMEN!!!! hehe
oh yea , back to my point . It's really wonderful , this PASSION thingy really have impact loads of peeps out there ! wonder how many lives change are there . haha .and i suppose i'll lost count. hee =D throughout this PASSION month , i really have grow in PASSION ( thats like so DUH ! )
and... other than this , i've grown in the area of courage .. ( i'm really shy last time okei! ) trust... prayer life.. perseverance .. determination.. excitedness ... sensitiveness ... wah.. its really alot till i can't remember. ever since the start of this whole PASSION , He had already reminded me the possibilities of me facing difficulties , and thank God for You that You immunized me beforehand. haha. well , He's been speaking to me all along that He'll back me up even though all things come your way. true enough , this whole PASSION doesn't pass well for me , people's life kinda of low and no converts and everthing. but so what ?! look what God has done in my life that i've grown in so many key areas. He still keep a promise with me that the smallest nation will turn out to be the mightiest ( specifically both quality and quantity ar! ) i'm gonna claim it big time babe ! muakaka ! His support is ever sufficient ! =DD

yupyup , the next big thing is... EASTER which is this month. i'm going to lost count in counting the life transformation again . i'll just sit back this time round , stretching my hands to collect fruits ! woah!!!!

seeing how God gonna chanhe my life and my people's life this time round. i'm in expectation. =D
farewell , might be gone in blogging again . don't miss me yea ! with love. with GOD. with PASSION

2006-02-14T08:03:00.000-08:00

who am i
that the Lord of all the earth
would care to know my name
would care to feel my hurt

who am i
that the bright and morning star
to choose to light the way
for my ever wandering heart

not because of who i am
but because of what YOU've done
not because of what i've done
but because of who YOU are

i am a flower quickly fading
here today and gone tomorrow
a wave tossed in the ocean
a vapour in the wind
still YOU hear me when i'm calling
LORD YOU catch me when i'm falling
and YOU told me who i am
i am YOURS

who am i
that the eyes of sinless saint
would look on me with love
and watch me rise again

who am i
that the voice that calm the sea
would call out through the rain
and calm the storm in me

i am YOURS
i am YOURS
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
cause i am YOURS

* fot those who feel this way as me , welcome to my life . but i pray for the rest to feel this way as well ! =D "